2018 kind of vibe
You were this daydream i kind of liked
your soul was ugly
But your smile was pretty brocade
I got carried away
You liked nirvana
And cardigans like cobain
And i liked lana
Cause i think pleasure is pain
Your laugh was deadly
The way you lived was contagious
And maybe
I'm not meant
For wholesome
And loving
But some memories arent bad
Car rides in the winter
And street food kind of days
The ice cream was melting my patience
Angry words and trauma
Your kiss like gentle rain
We're screaming and laughing in the same fray
Reading Kafka
And chasing the sun
We hated drama
And you weren't the one
But your shoulder
It was my haven
Why did you take it away
Now I'm older
I understand more
We were so high on
Each others chorus
Now its summer
Were both on different shores
(was it easy to forget)
And maybe
I not meant
For wholesome
And loving
But some memories aren't bad
Playing songs and waiting
Sharing one earphone
Your silence is leaving me broken
Ecstasy and mornings
But lonely afternoons
The lines were so blurred it was abusive
It was painful
Forgetting you
I was hateful
Cause I felt used
I should've asked if you felt messed up too
But now your happy
And I'm at peace
I hope you carry
These memories
Cause i cherished every hour with you