I haven't ate in a day
I haven't slept in bout two
I'm a perennial fool
Jus a directionless goon
Tryn find his way out of Jersey
Home hurt me, but lack the courage
To leave, Mama still worried bout me
Peak in her head when I sleep
Still in the heat with long sleeves
My wrists is dirty
Paid my dues, God reimbursed me the fee
I'm unsaved, forbidden fruit I was so curious to see
I had a taste, I've grown to love while resentj you
I pray for pills or a pistol
I'm done with docs and hospitals
My mind riddled with these psychopathic urges
Started smokin at 11 I been burnt since
Snortin dope, jus tryn cope, not be a nuissance
That boy sick, that poison, what he using
Abusing substances, for my amusement
I'm snoozing right through my prime, yeah I know that I'm stupid
I don't think I can do this, I'm too spent, might lose it
God wan me follow him again, I live by different rules
I was tip-toeing round death when I was skipping school
Trying hard it don't mean shit, and bitch I'm living proof
I put this blade up to my skin when I just think of you
Whatever they do, I just do the opposite
I'm too out of it, my mind just b wandering
I'm near my limit, soon might just go call it quits