self destruct Video (MV)

I've been tryna change my ways, not lose my faith[00:08.16]If I don't take the step, then I'll just stay the same[00:11.13]Staring at a screen to get through night and day[00:14.04]It's hard to keep my confidence in f*cking place[00:16.84]I know you wonder where I've been and why I left so long[00:20.34]A place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong[00:23.68]The sun don't shine and birds don't sing along[00:26.44]Upside down and nothing's where it belongs[00:29.31]self destruct or fix me up?[00:31.76]Do I tear the seams or stitch em up?[00:34.60]If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun[00:42.91]But I can never do that[00:46.33]I can never do that[00:49.06]I can never do that, oh my god[01:03.41]Maybe I'm clueless[01:05.48]Ignorant to what the truth is[01:08.06]Can't run or hide, baby, it's useless[01:11.16]I know that I've been playing stupid[01:14.97]I gotta save myself[01:17.88]for me and for no one else[01:20.60]Before I decay or melt[01:23.48]Or wither away in hell[01:28.10]Tired of acting like it's fine[01:30.85]Wish I could speak my f*cking mind[01:33.92]When I'm here, my tongue is tied When I'm there, I'm free to fly[01:40.88]I need to get away from here Ignore all my biggest fears[01:46.83]Feel the sounds ring through my ears[01:49.50]Cause I know you wonder[01:50.55]where I've been and why I left so long[01:53.25]A place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong[01:56.22]The sun don't shine and birds don't sing along[01:59.29]Upside down and nothing's where it belongs[02:02.12]Self destruct or fix me up?[02:04.52]Do I tear the seams or stitch em up?[02:07.42]If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun[02:15.69]But I can never do that[02:18.80]I can never do that I can never do that, oh my god