Jack Raymond - I Never Miss. Lyrics

I miss the bro
We haven't talked in over a year
Maybe it's two
I'm not afraid to admit that I care
'Cause he was my cousin but all of my messages go into air
He's got a daughter who's growing as fast as resentment I keep
But I never see that branch of the family tree
Why did you leave?
We know it was problems, legality things
But all that I wanted was for you to ring
Do you have regrets or think about things?
Do you not see time isn't waiting for anybody?
Aunty passed out of nowhere
No conversation
Fam' in the hospital
You wouldn't know if they didn't make it
I'm more sensitive in tune emotionally
So I got tears every time you don't open these texts that I'm sending
I'm about to give up it's the ending
I don't want to live in regret
So I tried love unconditionally
But when it's one sided for so long it starts to f*ck with my peace
I guess I'll just drop it and forget the child hood memories
It's obvious you don't want nothing to do with me anyways
I want you to meet Tamara and tell me you're proud
Or talk to her see how I've chosen the best but I guess
You don't deserve to know how I'm going
What I've accomplished
Who I'm becoming
Your brother was barely familiar with me in the slightest
I miss and love you but I guess I might just
Put all these feelings aside while I write this
Probably won't talk to me ever again when you hear it
I got too much baggage
I need to clear it
So many people I miss that ain't want to conversate over some shit
I admit I've been selfish and I've been a dick
But I love a lot harder than I would admit
And you were the brother that I never had
A figure to model that isn't my Dad
I don't f*ck with the gossip and don't get involved
I'm sick of the problems
I just want to talk
You made me feel like I wasn't enough
What did I do?
I don't know but it sucks
How much family we got to mourn?
How many years will it go on?
I used to feel pain a lot harder than this
Cause I was aimless but I never miss
Don't get me started on brothers I lost
I'm not afraid to admit that I care
One of 'em struggling mentally, I wish I was there
But he pushed me away for a new group of friends
And chasing a dream that's never gon' end
High on adrenaline mixed with the fen'
I just want to talk with him
Tell him I made it
I found the one and she's f*cking amazing
Just want to see how he's going and talk about everything
Maybe talk into his life and I change it
Give him advice from a person who actually cares
Not anybody who wouldn't care if he ended up dead
All of my past things came to end
When I found a passion and a reason
Sure I could miss some of them as a person but
Don't get me wrong, I'm not feeling regret or desertion or
Any resentment to anyone burdened with memories of me making them hurt
I don't ask you to forgive
I just want you to know that I'm sorry
But I never miss what I had cause it's costly
To live in the past and the present's becoming the past you'll regret
I never fold I don't bend under stress
I don't give a f*ck about money, success, or fame, and sex or the rest of the list
I walk with a chip on my shoulder on tight rope while juggling fourty problems
I might as well quit
If we don't talk anymore it's probably just for the best
Cause I was aimless but i never miss