Brighter Days Video (MV)

Brighter days

Let me take a seat, better yet, lie down.
You could tell anxiety by the way I sound.
No i don't wish I'd die right now
But I wish I was high right now
And if I lie, put a needle in my eye right now
But the one I needed in my life right now
Is the reason I think I'm losing my sight right now
Dude looking at me like how?
Well
The person who I thought was so heavenly
Used crack heavily during her pregnancy
So the city by the sea was seen by me wit crack cocaine dripping thru an iv.
Ugh.
Pre0mie baby. incubator.
Kept me there til I kicked the habit.
Could have been dead could have caught the fader
But ya boy magic like the hat n the rabbit
Never thought she'd try to kill me
And no i don't think it was intentional
But if you did it, lost custody n still didn't stop,
Well, to be honest, I don't know.
They still let you take me, I don't even know why
Probably cuz your system ran out all the co-ca
And im not bashing cuz you think you did ya best
But you contributed to this hole in my chest.

Chorus:
Got to be a brighter day where everything will be ok
When the night so dark, you can hear me say, please lord take me away
Got to be a brighter day where everything will be ok
No matter where you are it's not that far just a few hours away

20 years later as I re.vis.it.
Our really abusive re.lation.ship.
You still can't admit to the shit you did
Talking to me like you got un.limited kids
So if you lose the love of one, eh no big
I'm his mother, respect is what he has to give
Even if I call him a stupid muthaf*cka, a 30 year old child and a son of a bitch. ugh.
I'm the only one you cant have no more.
We're family, what we need to keep score for?
And all those things you said when you were mad
Comes multiplied when rage comes from sad
Then you wanna say that's white boy shit
To be really real that's hype boy shit
Cuz if I did you like that, you wouldn't like that shit.
You even said you was gon get yo clique.
Beat my ass n knock my head off a clown
Word for word this how it sound
"you better be glad I don't have your address, cuz I might come n burn your mother f*cking house down"
Why the hell would you say that?
About the place where yo grandson lay at?
I don't understand what's in your head.
But if that's the case, consider me dead. f*ck!

Chorus:
Got to be a brighter day where everything will be ok
When the night so dark, you can hear me say, please lord take me away
Got to be a brighter day where everything will be ok
No matter where you are it's not that far just a few hours away

So from this point forward, ima do you like you do me
And if your feelings get hurt. sue me.
All yo friends that from the old block that thought they knew me, the ones you said helped to groom me.
The ones you cant remember leaving me with when you was doing you living life like the movies.
N I was wide awake, counting the lies n fakes wit a knife to make sure they wont do me
This is the unbroken version of the new me. oooh wee