J Magnus - Rain Lyrics

Yeah
We used to walk up to Hillbrow barefooted
Acting stupid with my niggas
I wish y'all could see the footage
And we would steal some snacks along the way
And that should hold us for the day
Just a bunch of shorties that always got dissed along the way
Could never afford toys so we'd hit up game stores
And by the end of the day we'd have cars and game boys

Who would have thought things would change
I mean me and Steven was tighter than Tini's coming of age
Every letter of every page we agreed on everything

I think similar situations at the crib really played a part
207 with your mama and your sister and your pops would soon be abandoned
And I was left alone
That's when I started hanging with marshal my older bro
He looked out for me he was down for me
And I would die for him
Undoubtedly my best moments growing up were thanks to him

But I could never really fit into the mix 'cause his poppa never liked me
Acted like I ain't give a shit but I did man that shit hurt
That's when I told myself f*ck it
Started hanging with other niggas and it was lovely
And that was my introduction to the liquor
Sweetest feeling I had known but the taste was bitter
I was 12 years of age with a mad amount of rage
Stuck in a shitty life and I was going through a phase
Felt like Danny dop was the save
But at 12 I couldn't buy it myself I felt caged
So I I'd wait for the guys and steal some coins out my momma purse
And wait till it's time
And they'd never sell to us kids so we'd pay a guy
Homeless probably start the party
And my momma worked a lot so she would never know
And I was good at hiding shit and playing happy boy
But it was bro to the rescue you showed me how to best move
A couple of threats too so eventually I left dudes

But we grew and grew apart
Nothing lasts forever man I knew that from the start
But you'll always be my brody man on everything I got
Yeah that's on everything I

Yeah
Then fast forward 2017
I drop out of college I gotta chase the dream
My eyes finally open to this life that's outside of the city
That's when I knew I had to grind man I knew I had to get it
Uh tried to be calm but it only made me colder I had to leave
But you wouldn't let me out you held on to the keys
All this tension in the air shit was thicker than thieves
And my greatest escape thought I'd find in the trees
Finally free naïve me that shit wasn't to be
Losing the grip on reality I needed some sleep
A little time off would do man I needed some peace
And I was still dealing with a heartbreak needed a fix
But i couldn't tell a soul they'd think I was weak
So roll me a joint or pass me a cigg
Uh give me a shot matter of fact pass the bottle I'll swig

I'm too far gone and I'm stuck in the mid stuck in a pit
And ain't wrote in a bit
My anxiety screaming music ain't working for shit
And at this point I'm really contemplating calling it quits
And 2018 had passed but on Christmas Eve
I realized I was different like of a different breed
That's when everything changed I knew I had to achieve greatness
And do some things that they still ain't seen
That's when it dawned on me like boy you're the shit
And everything that you've needed has been down in a beat
So I got a job and built a studio then hoped on some beats
Beat beat beat man beat after beat
Till I ain't have nothing to give but accept this defeat

Uh bottom of the barrel found myself at the bottom
With a bottle in hand and bothered again by the thought I might fail
Bothered by noise and bothered by fear
Bothered I'm here broke I'm bothered I'm not balling this year
But I bottle my fears
Put a hold on my tears
They swear they caught a glimpse
Rebuttal my nigga get the f*ck outta here
Could never be me I smile and act cheer
But it's far from sincere
'Cause truth is I'm embarrassed I can't afford my own beer
No I wasn't born to be basic
But to be lord of the cadence
They say timing and patience
But I'm tired of the waiting
I might stop on occasion but so dedicated
Got the heart of a lion now let the jungle hear Simba roar

Roar not like Perry roar
But roar like yo pay me more
Roar like I want it all raw
Raw not like Monday night raw but raw like a clip of a brawl
That's how you serve a king of the jungle
I'm Magnus after all

I'm the don not Corleone
Not choice but calling homie
The reason your cardi's on me my aura suggests king
Even though I got nothing on me

Bottom of the barrel bottom again
At the bottom and bare
Bottom not scared
F*ck it I'm done looking for stairs
Counting mistakes pitying self
I made the most of it all and found gold in the words that I said
I finna meditate on everything they'll watch me ascend

And though they shifted focus from the raps to the scandals
Bruh what's good for the goose ain't always good for the gander
Subpar bars for oh my god's
Subpar arts get oh my god's
Yes men gas em up like yo bro man it's all 5 starts it's so hot hot
When it's so haha
You tell the truth they call it hate yeah don't blow my high
You tell the truth and burn a bridge niggas go bye bye
Well I got enough friends so I will not lie
Stand firm behind these words that I'm writing on fern
10 toes behind the scripts
Yeah don't f*ck with my pen

Magnus