J Fierro - In My Head Lyrics

I'm too addicted to numbing the pain
I hate feeling, so I'm fogging up my brain
Its always bright out, like to me it never rains
I'm livin life by the balance which it hangs

I swear that this high is my fuel
My vices been feeling so crucial
I don't know who to trust
My mind is confused
Just Look me in the eyes and be truthful
Don't let your thoughts tear you down and abuse you
I promise i love you
If you tell me you love me
And i say that i don't want to lose you
Would you tell me the feeling is mutual

I lie to your face and I tell you the usual
Take shots to the face i just don't wanna hear it
A storm in my head got my mind so delusional
Feel like I'm in the spotlight but no one is cheering
To cure my depression i create illusions
And i just been fighting those demons
And you always jump to conclusions
I swear it ain't easy
It's hard to explain let me clear the confusion

I've been smoking heavy
All my drinks are deadly
Broken heart no remedy
Cold heart, no sympathy
I just wanna get rid of me
You say that your sick of me
All the pain it gets me
Roll a game it don't get to me

I'm too addicted to numbing the pain
I hate feeling, so I'm fogging up my brain
Its always bright out, like to me it never rains
I'm livin life by the balance which it hangs

I drown in the liquor, its gotten abusive
Yeah I've been abusing
And i have been using and taking
Your heart is amusing and dangerous
Just picture these words that I'm painting
And try to imagine the love isn't fading
I know that you tired of the playing
I know that you tired of me saying
I'm sorry, the record is broken
And i was just hopin
My effort is noticed
I have been feeling so hopeless
This is ain't the right way to cope with
This pain that I'm feeling
And i have been praying for healing
I probably don't even deserve it
These thoughts In my head got me nervous
I hate who I am as a person
But i cannot quit that's for certain
Behind the curtains i drop all my worries then leave it All up to the bourbon

I've been smoking heavy
All my drinks are deadly
Broken heart no remedy
Cold heart, no sympathy
I just wanna get rid of me
You say that your sick of me
All the pain it gets me
Roll a game it don't get to me

I'm too addicted to numbing the pain
I hate feeling, so I'm fogging up my brain
Its always bright out, like to me it never rains
I'm livin life by the balance which it hangs