Two Knobs And A Faucet Video (MV)

I sat down
In the middle
Of the tub
Hoping the water
Would wash away
The pain from today

I stared at the knobs
And the faucet
Thus creating it's face
Going numb to the heat
As the water dripped
I opened my mouth to taste

In an attempt to erase
Or eradicate the sensation
Of not being okay

I hummed to myself
Mumbled
Dare I say
As if I were to pray
To a deity
I cannot relate

The notion of fate
And things etched in stone
Groans in my head
Like a creak on a bed
I am beginning
To descend again
Into isolation
Without an end

I spend more time
Thinking of others
Than I do myself

I stand in the middle
Of aisle twelve
And these shelves are taller
Than a twelve stack
Of a bunch of elves

I reach for the can
Way up top
It falls down
Like a shampoo bottle does
And I snap out of it
Turning the water off

I snicker and scoff
As I come to my senses
Thus drying off
I force a cough
To check my lungs
Still work

I shake my neck
As if to affect
Something to that effect
Or something of complex
Or something for context
I lost where I was going
Next

As seems to be the way
The day before
Your birthday
I am reminded

I am confiding
That you're in a better place
Hoping to put space
Between the heartache
Of August twenty-fourth
And the future
Of what I hold at stake

I had an earth
It was shattered
By an earthquake

These socks they're warm
And I confirm that my fingers
Are able and ready
Unsteady like yours
But still able and ready
I'm losing it again
And my chest is feeling heavy

I
I
I wish I could be
The best version
For whoever needed
Whatever version
That may be
That is conjured in their minds
But I can only be me

That was statued by you
And all that you do
I mean
Did

In my heart
I am a kid

In my mind
I kid