Comfortable in Chaos Video (MV)

Am I comfortable in chaos since I seek it when I'm calm?
Am I confident when I'm insecure,
Since I always seem to call the ones who doesn't want me back
At least I've been there before
I know that way
I've crawled that road
It's hurts, but at least I know that for sure

I- I- I- I don't know if you want me
Bet I- I- I'm too comfortable in chaos
I don't know if you want me
Bet I'm too comfortable

(I'm too comfortable in chaos
I'm too comfortably comfortable)

Why do I self destruct when I'm healing?
Was it meant to be like this?
Miss being little still cuz' I didn't understand
That my own thoughts would try and kill me
I'm still afraid
I guess I- I just pretend that I'm older
I'm 21, but I wanna feel like 5 again

Maybe 22 will be easier
23 will look good on me
47, am I still awake?
52, do I feel like me again?
When will I settle in myself?
God, I'm too distracted for my own best
When will I settle in myself?
When will I settle in myself?

I- I- I- I don't know if you want me
Bet I- I- I'm too comfortable in chaos
I don't know if you want me
Bet I'm too comfortable

(I'm too comfortable in chaos
I'm too comfortably comfortable)