Instead of wishing what we never had
Man I f*cked with all the good and bad
Instead of living in your toxic phase
I put you first and showed you the way
I lighted fireworks not your cigarettes
I made the bed but you'd just mess with it
When I stopped dreaming for the better days
I started praying for my sanity
Oh it's not fair you're not here
Oh and I'm scared
I'm losing the fight
I'm sick of all the lust and the lights
I'm sick of all the pain
And you're not here
I'm losing my mind
I'm sick of all the rush and the heights
I'm sick of all the weight
And you're not here
The only one who got the best of me
But choose to close your eyes why can't you see
Now I'm not taking anything for granted
But it'd be nice to feel a little magic
Oh its not fair you're not here
Oh and I'm scared
I'm losing the fight
I'm sick of all the lust and the lights
I'm sick of all the pain
And you're not here
I'm losing my mind
I'm sick of all the rush and the heights
I'm sick of all the weight
And you're not here
And not that it matters
And not that it matters
But I'm losing my last breath
And not that I matter
And not that I matter
But I cant take a breath
I'm losing the fight
I'm sick of all the lust and the lights
I'm sick of all the pain
And you're not here