Irruent - she loathes me. Lyrics

I don't wanna talk
You're wrapped within my arms
Leave me back, I'm trapped with your heart
Just say I love you
I know it's hard to
When I lost your trust
I know it's hard to love
That night, where I lost everything
You were mine, and I lost that piece of me
When I couldn't feel your touch
Or hear your voice
Everything's dark, you leave no choice
Make me bleed or just break me into pieces
Everyone's up and leaving
I don't know what I'm seeing
What do I believe?
I believe, I believe you loathe me
Was it when, was it when, when I left?
I know you don't like me like you used to
Put me in disdain or despair
Everything's hard, it's hell
Everything is bleak
When did I turn meek?
Bleak and blank, looking, everyone's worried
I don't know what I got for me
What's there to leave?
I lost part of me in a week
I lost all of you in a day
One line, one text, gone away
And she'll never want me back
Thoughts around my head, yeah, it's lapped
Ruts I'm in, I'm rotting with my choices
I don't want to hear any of the noises
Cover up my ears
I don't wanna hear what you have to say
I know you don't love me back
Stuck in here, I feel attacked
Maybe I just feel attached
Don't leave it up to me
I don't want to see
You with another man
Why can't I be your plan?