$irr Epic - Past Due Lyrics

This is what I needed to do

You know it's crazy man
All the shit that I've been through since my last project
But you know what like
With that
With that hind sight sky view man
I'm kinda glad that I went through all that shit
Ya know
Brought me to where I am now
Shit it made me who I am now
And that's priceless
I wouldn't trade it for anything
This pain will make you stronger if you let it
Living testimony ya know
As a matter of fact
It wasn't too long ago that

I remember when I went to see my momma in hospice
She wouldn't open her eyes
I grabbed her hand
And I promised her imma change
I made mistakes
For that I'm genuinely sorry
And said from now on
I'll focus on repenting
Redempted I'm living godly
It's definitely in her honor
I'm trying this shit is harder
Than I ever would've fathomed it
While I was grieving
The drinking let to paralysis
Was veering like the steering was off
Man I couldn't handle it and crashed
Now the fact of the matter is
All that savage shit is played out
Fakers want a way in
Natives want a way out
Hoping for a break
Brain twisted like an ankle
Never knowing how your day
Is gonna play out
Shit deal them again
I got an ace now
Was trippin' this a greyhound
But it hit me pretty heavy on the way down
Got a split in my head
It's not a playground
It's Flint
Your either spitting with a pen or with a K round
We state bound
I'm taking a pick like it's a fake smile
My waves say I'm
Soaking up the rain from that grey cloud
Resent it when he said
For everybody bow yo head and let us pray now
The shit is a prank
And it had me sicker than a plague
To get to heaven gotta pay now
Wonder if gods got a PayPal
Or maybe if I save it up later
Would he take it if I pay out
Save me a seat inside a safe house
The stress of it has
Got my head banging like that bass loud
I'm headed your way when I say I'm ready
Like I'm late now
It's cradle to the grave for the baby
Gotta make it imma stay around
Amazing how that feeling hit behind your legs
Like a muthaf*cking take down
Nigga I feel awake now yeah
Got one shot like it's 8 mile
On ten toes nigga
I never laid down
Ain't plan on beginning
It's Past Due