InterParadox - My Meaning Lyrics

Give me one I want it all
I've never been contend with what we are
This ideal of a perfect life is an addiction
It makes enjoying life a bad fiction, a mad science, I cannot rest or sleep when I'm closing my eyelids
I should stop chasing constant improvement, distract myself protect my brain from any intrusion
But it's an illusion that I can ever be finished, find a conclusion
Cause that gives me the petrified feeling of not moving and of losing
Time. We only have a life of it and I feel guilty every time I'm waiting around not making the most of it
That's why my mind's constantly lit, and I don't mean on fire, it's burning I can't even approach it with pliers
I need to take it higher and not stay on the ground
I'm restless want to fully use every moment cause it's the clock that counts
I shouldn't be weighed down, I shouldn't be held down, I shouldn't be dragged down and I should never back down

This constant determination comes with a cost
Cause through this age of frost I keep my fingers crossed
Cause doing nothing and standing still is when I feel lost
At work I feel guilty for not writing lines by now I went back and forth on just splitting and quitting so many times
Like Nike poets just did it hundreds of years ago
How can it be so hard if I don't start I'll never know
I do have hope so why do I get so bitter, I don't even consider myself to be a quitter
I would love nothing more than to live for this craft
Cause that means my life until now has been nothing but a draft and I can start to put the art in heart
Make me forget all about this farce and piece together the shards
But on a every day basis I'm not moving like I'm just stuck in a stasis and when I try to break out
I'm running in mazes
Every f*cking day I see the same faces. This doesn't happen in phases
Coming back to the same places and I'm playing the same aces

Or maybe I shouldn't talk like that. I always had everything one could as for if I'm honest and take a look back
We were never struggling with money and I finished my degree, always had an opportunity so why is it I wanna flee
So does this mean I should f*ck work cause music just feels right
It kinda seems cause it gives me everything I want out of life
I should scream aim and fire the targets in sight, normal life vs my dream it's fight night
The stages flashes in bright light

But I hate to admit that I don't have the balls to quit and to fully commit to the dream I had as a kid
I'm struggling cause it doesn't make sense not to do what I love every single day maybe
That'll finally make my constant feeling of losing time vanish and go away
So yeah just quit and you can stop constantly thinking about it
F*ck your studies, f*ck your job, f*ck your family, f*ck your friends, f*ck your sparetime and get the crowd lit
Unless you're DJ Khaled making music 5 hours a week has never written somebody a hit
You always wanted to be bigger than life to be recognized, push your self esteem and brag with your wit

FUCK