internal abuse - a letter to you Lyrics

Yeah, you knew you was wrong, and now I'm thinking, why, why'd you even text my phone
You know you wrong for the games, the games that you used to play, the games that you
Played on my brain
Now I can't feel the same

I tried to cry so hard, but I ain't feel a thing
And now I can't think what to say, imma just numb the pain
I tried to just numb with the drugs, I started at such a young age
I'm just a boy trying to be a man, I swear I'm not okay

Got lost in the storm trying to find my way, looking for light to brighter day
If you can't find yourself at night, I promise it's gonna be okay
That's what my grandma used to tell me, before I used to go to sleep
Man, I love that woman so much, got her name tatted on my sleeve

Remember when there was no food to eat, she was always looking out to feed
Now shoutout to T, that's my mom, she was always a real ass G
Better look out she puts to sleep, love my mama, it's you and me
Love my sisters all the way to the gods
Nigga play with yall, i swear to god he gon' bleed
Man, I swear to God, they gon' bleed
I guess I can finally cry, got a tear running down my cheek
Yeah, it's running down my cheek

Rubbing on my nose, wiping up snot
F*ck bro, im finna be 18
Yeah, you knew where you was wrong
And now I'm thinking, why

Why'd you even text my phone
You know you wrong for the games
The games you used to play
The games that you played on my brain

Now I can't feel the same
I tried to cry so hard, but I ain't feel a thing
Now I can't think what to say
Imma just numb with pain

I tried to numb it with the drugs
I started at such young age
I'm just a boy trying to be a man
I swear I'm not okay

I promise you'll see better days
Suicide is not the way
If you feel like you need to escape
Pave the way and mark the date

Please don't ask me on what am I feeling
I put it down on all of these songs
When I die and go far away
Play this shit right next to my stone

I'm just a boy trying to be a man
I swear I'm not okay
I put it down on all of these songs