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In the stu cooking like holidays
Speakers blasting that's how class is made
Playin magic zeke with a ankle sprain
Working last shift, pennies, the harder way
From punching in to punching clocks
I was fighting time for a punchers chance
For a hit see them dollar signs
Get their ears then their heart then I spark their minds
State bars for life they never pardon crimes
Private practice with the pen
I was shonda rhimes
Seeing greys young in that honda ride
Stressing awaiting my blessing
Confused my life was dyslexic
See money they flex it
My money I stretch it
Feelings compress it
I'm sipping this bottle hope for a message
So many trials but ain't been arrested
Hearing the doubt
Can I really achieve it
My girl she don't believe it
My family don't see it
Alone in my thoughts
Fighting my demons
What is the purpose my reason
I'm living I'm breathing
I'm feeling defeated
I fell down repeated
On this path should be speeding
But my shoes feel like they cement cause
Still searching
Trying to find a place to call my home
Still searching
Trying to find myself I'm lost I'm gone
Still searching
Trying to find a way to right my wrongs
Still searching
Trying to see why I feel alone
I been searching wait
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Been searching
Searching for a purpose
Searching beyond surface
Searching is it worth it
Been searching wait
Am I tweaking or bugging
For peeping they judgment
They thinking I may not be nothing
They face is disgusted
Shame me in public
I'm playing my cards feel like I'm bluffing
It's taking forever
Can we just rush it
I'm stubborn I'm dug in
This music I love it
Alive because it
Keep my heart beating my God has entrusted
Me with the talent
Say life about balance
I'm Biles gymnastics
These files are classic
It's fire I'm gassing
They mild they tragic
Poetry slam the way I be snapping
My dreams, they can't fathom
So they attack them
Down them and drag them
Clown them they laughing
Hope I stay stagnant
Fall to they tactics but bounce like elastic
Looking with magnifying glasses cause
Still searching
Trying to find a place to call my home
Still searching
Trying to find myself, I'm lost, I'm gone
Still searching
Trying to find a way to right my wrongs
Still searching
Trying to see why I feel alone
I been searching wait
Been searching wait
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Been searching
Searching for a purpose
Searching beyond surface
Searching is it worth it
Been searching wait
If you looking for a reason
Here it is here it is
It's our time it's our season
Do it big do it big
If you looking for a reason
Here it is here it is
It's our time it's our season
Do it big do it big
If you looking for a reason
Here it is here it is
It's our time it's our season
Do it big do it big
I been searching wait
Been searching wait
Been searching wait
Been searching
Searching for a purpose
Searching beyond surface
Searching is it worth it
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