Instead of Ella - April Lyrics

Rain drops are sliding down a wall of glass
Evolving into a drench of hopelessness
With the wet asphalt beneath me
That's how April tries to greet me
One dark cloud in which I swim

I mess with your feelings
'Cause mine change like the seasons
I know that I'm no good

But I can't pull myself together
'Cause nothing really matters
Oh when did I grow so cold

In this summer rain
Is where I gotta stay
I watch myself giving in
Though this has never been my thing
This has never been my thing

I wish I was like you
Know what to feel and what to do
Instead I'm on the run
And Idon't know what I'm running from

I know that you expect me to be upset
But I can't act like a puppet on a string

Should have told you before rather than ignore
But I am stubborn, and you are too

Staying silent ain't gonna make it alright
But the more I talk, the less I know

In this summer rain
Is where I gotta stay
I watch myself giving in
Though this has never been my thing
This has never been my thing