Love is beautiful loving is so bright
Peaceful feelings worth more than fun and flight
I long to be the one who brings you cheer
But your happiness the goal so clear
Behind my friendly face there's truth so cold
A secret dark a tale untold
I resent the ones I'm kind to so
A contradiction I can't let go
Shouldn't being nice make my heart feel light
But inside me there's a brewing fight
Every favor asked cuts deep like a blade
A reminder of the anger that won't fade
I question if I'm truly kind inside
With negative thoughts I can't abide
I do good deeds to reassure my soul
But each one deepens my troubled hole
The weight of lies it drags me down
A true heart doesn't wear such a frown
Yet here I am in battle with my life
A nice facade hides deeper strife
Behind my friendly face there's truth so cold
A secret dark a tale untold
I resent the ones I'm kind to so
A contradiction I can't let go