Infamous Frizz - Blackout Lyrics

I feel my hearts been lead astray
I don't know the person I am today
But I'm not the same as yesterday
So I guess I'll never be the same

It seems like life is give and take
My heart is weary and it just might break
There's a decision that I'm forced to make
The choice will be for my own sake

Because back then you failed me
Smoking fat grams on the daily
Cutting my skin doesn't phase me
Depression left me empty
And I
Feel myself slipping
Further away from humanity
Gone now, the person I used to be
Don't you try and fix me
Cause I'm just a lost cause
Now I only sleep

Wishing I could go back
And change the past
But in life's race
I come up last
Alcohol, Xans and Kpins
Aid in the state that I'm in
But it doesn't change
The way I choose to live or
For that I can't forgive
You went and broke me
Left for dead
Now here I am
Glued to this bed
I only sleep

Now every day I'm numbed
Drowning myself with drugs
Cause the pain's too real
I don't know what to do
With myself
I don't want to feel

Smoke another bowl to relax
Snort more lines, back to back
How much more does it take
Trying hard to stay awake
But here I am
And I only sleep

Blurring scenes of past days
Filled with mistakes I've made
Forced to drown myself
To wash the pain away
But it seems I can't be content
Every move I feel resent
F*ckin up all the sheets
Drowning week by week
So numb and I can't speak
See me now
I only sleep

Wanna make my parents proud
Feeling like a failure
Lost face in the crowd
Don't wanna do this anymore
Staring at the ceiling
Face down on the floor
Back to the dark place
In my mind
Busy contemplating suicide
All I want to do is to feel alive
But I lay down
And go to sleep

Now every day I'm numbed
Drowning myself with drugs
Cause the pain's too real
And I don't know what to do
With myself
I don't want to feel

Smoke another bowl to relax
Snort more lines back to back
How much more does it take
Trying hard to stay awake
But here I am
And I only sleep