Look myself dead in the eyes
I don't recognize
The person inside of the mirror
Still I put my makeup on
Can't let on there's something wrong
There's people comin' over in ten
Lean over the kitchen sink
Pour myself another drink
The last thing that I wanna do is think
When did I become so obsessed with projecting this image
Feels like I'm crossin' a line
Cnother line and I'll be fine
The only time that I'm not overthinkin' is
When I'm not thinkin' at all
There must be somethin' fundamentally wrong
Cuz I crave this total loss of control
Don't know why I'm feelin' this pressure
Maybe it's because
Sometimes I think about my younger self
She was naive and insecure and I just wanna protect her
When did I become so obsessed with obtaining this status
I think I'm probably the only one who's even keepin' score
The only time that I'm not overthinkin' is
When I'm not thinkin' at all
There must be somethin' fundamentally wrong
Cuz I crave this total loss of control
I'm in a room full of people that I love
But somehow it's not enough
The only time that I'm not overthinkin' is when I'm gettin' wasted
(The only time that I'm not overthinin' x 2)
In a room with flashing lights
Cnother random spends the night
Now I'm even lonelier than before
I need to tone it down
Do they even want me around
I'll just shut my mouth won't make a sound
The only time that I'm not overthinkin' is
When I'm not thinkin' at all
There must be somethin' fundamentally wrong
Cuz I crave this total loss of control
I'm in a room full of people that I love
But somehow it's not enough
The only time that I'm not overthinkin' is when I'm gettin wasted