Impurity - Addiction Lyrics

My whole life I've been feeling like I'm lied too
And even if I try to hide it there's still something I feel confined too
On the inside I don't think that I can find truth
Cuz even in my mind I've been restless trynna find you
Addiction comes in many different flavours
Sometimes you even see it on the surface
But just because you cannot
Does not mean that it's not hurting
Finding time, need suppressants
I need some meds to let me think
This is
Something different
It's not the drugs but it's still hurting all the same
Was staying silent trynna cope with all my mental
But talking loud so I can heal my confidential
It's finally on the surface
Feeling alone on this dark road
Trynna Overcome all these potholes
Stepping foot first in the undertow
Trynna overcome but your so low
And I don't know
Where do I go
Trynna find solace in my soul
Feeling tied down with no escape known
Close my eyes just to let go
Im telling myself that I should let go
These painful moments hang in the air just like an echo
It's like voices they've been talking been thinking that I'm impulsive
I've been needing time alone
But that's the place where all these thoughts grow
Its all my dark thoughts
I'm not addicted
Its just the pain that I can't stop and Im so conflicted
I Feel regret but no remorse so I've been stuck here
Admit the wrongs that I've been doing, make it so clear
This isn't make or fake it
This isn't time to roll your windows up and take a break
It's time to learn your lessons,
Get back up and starting fresh with all these burning questions
It's time to make some changes let's start to rearrange things
Learn to organise your life and stop just feeling less than
Not all this second guessing
It's time to pay attention
Not take some stranger's message
Cuz that's the stuff that's got me down and feeling so depressing
You gotta take your blessings
Feeling alone on this dark road
Trynna Overcome all these potholes
Stepping foot first in the undertow
Trynna overcome but your so low
And I don't know
Where do I go
Trynna find solace in my soul
Feeling tied down with no escape known
Close my eyes just to let go
See I've been letting myself down lately it's so distasteful
And all these voices in my mind lately it's gotten painful
I have these moments in my happy place
They fade to grey
Replaced by darkness spending lusting I don't have a say
I've been going through some therapy lately
It's a view of my attempts to get further away
It's all these issues I've been having in these recent days
And in this moment Im knowing that I need to escape
Not everything is planned, at least that's how I see it
Fate derived from daily choices not just one decision
See you have to test yourself so you can find your vision
I've been feeling like I'm blinded though my imprecision
Everything is what you make and what you've lost
Gotta focus on the positives just flake it off
And I've been waiting for these moments
Yee have little faith
It's all these obstacles I hurdle past that make or break
Feeling alone on this dark road
Trynna Overcome all these potholes
Stepping foot first in the undertow
Trynna overcome but your so low
And I don't know
Where do I go
Trynna find solace in my soul
Feeling tied down with no escape known
Close my eyes just to let go