I Try But Video (MV)

Honestly, feeling kinda aggravated
Little mad but I'm feeling kinda motivated
Little sad, but I think I'll be alright
Searching for a time when I'm not
Not a time
When I'm not feeling down
Or I'm feeling alone
And I'm wondering why
I never pick up the phone
I should give it a try
But it's harder than bones
Cause I feel that I should be alone
Knock on the door
I know it's my demons
They keep coming back
They're always deceiving
I cower away
I never could face them
I'm wanting to change
I get so afraid of
Opening up
Its not what I'm made for
Know it could work
But I lose what I came for
That is a place
That I go when my hearts sore
But I don't want it anymore
Stuck in a loop
And becoming insane
Saving myself
By doing my own thing
All of the pressure
Is getting to my brain
Can't do it anymore
Pray as I lose faith
Losing my brain
Can you stop me
Before I lose you
And lose the one thing
That is all I have
To stay okay
You always save me
Always save me
I try to fix myself
I try to be okay
I try to fix myself
I try to be okay
But I, am not
Okay, again
But I, am not
Okay, again
Put up a bag, and I start with my hooks
I jab for attention, but never get looks
I'm pounding away, and the bag starts to sway
Punch like it's me
Cause I'm causing the pain
Clearing my head
With some physical pain
Even though I know it's never the way
Moving around
And I'm changing my pace
And All of the sudden I'm seeing my face
Start to replace, the bag I am taking
Out all my anger, it's starting to fade and
I start to look up
And I realize I'm hanging
My body and all of the demons I'm facing
A shot to my body
I'm shocked to the core
I'm giving me pain
Like it's never before
Then I have the audacity
To ask why my body is sore
Damn
Why do I do, what I do
Why do I do, what I do
I try to fix myself
I try to be okay
I try to fix myself
I try to be okay
But I, am not
Okay, again
But I, am not
Okay, again