I Hate Me Video (MV)

I swear that I hate me sometimes
And how I can be
I hate how my mind is making everything
Look so differently
Cause what you see
And what I see
Are just two separate things
It's the way that I have lived
In my life growing up
That changes my perspective
In a crowd of people
But the voices always cover em
Loudest thing is mind
Is all the suffering
Start to feel some pain
But act like it's nothing and
Play to be happy
When you start asking "How you been?
Make it ease
Just so I could get some weight off
Waiting on delay
So the problems could just take off
Then I would be okay
With my feet up on the ground
No more voices in my head
Saying Joy will never come around
Cause I deserve to be happy
Like everybody else
And no one will support me
Like I do myself
Cause I've been on my own for so long
Hardly see the people that believe
So I am staying strong
No one can tell me I am wrong
When I am chasing dreams
You couldn't find the one you'd make
So now you're blaming me
The fact you didn't make it
Makes it not meant to be
Now I got issues of my own
Can you please just let me be
I swear that I hate me sometimes
And how I can be
I hate how my mind is making everything
Look so differently
Cause what you see
And what I see
Are just two separate things
It's the way that I have lived
In my life growing up
That changes my perspective
Building up too much emotion
I feel like I'm broken
Every time I try to say a word
It's better left unspoken
Every time I try to look at it
In different kind of ways
I always come back
To the point of view I first had
Yea its the same
My head is clouded
I keep on stressing
It gives me hell
Fighting demons
They know me
More than I do myself
Trying to figure it out
I need to move along
They can't keep holding me down
If I am staying strong
That's why I keep pushing the things
That are holding me back
No taking a second to breathe
No I cannot relax
I couldn't take a break if I tried
I'll start to slack
Then the devil that's in my head
Will bring the voices back
And I'm not up for that
So I am doing this
I'm doing all I can
To never have to miss
Another family day
Feeling so depressed
And I can finally learn
To use what's in my chest