ImJustC3 - Defense Lyrics

It's darker this time
Yea
Had to take some time and realize that life ain't always good
But God is always good, and some days you might lose
Back to back and it's ok you'll win another day
Don't be your on obstacle, so just get out the way
I tell myself that I'm ok, but I be really lying
Took a lot to write this song cause I ain't been inspired
These past event that just took place just left me Mesmerized
And it cut me so deep that I'm surprised that I'm still alive
Don't know why I still hold my breath
I can't come up for air
And at night when I'm alone I just sit back in stare
When I know it ain't nothing there
But I guess I hope it is
As man this ain't really how you supposed to live
But I been out of touch
When I come alive, It like a rush
You can't soak up game, if you don't hush
Unh huh
I told God I'm hurt and I been stuck
But I never doubt him
Cause I know he coming clutch
Carry all this weight, to me it's light
Unh huh
Some nights I still cry and that's alright
Unh huh
I've been of mind not out of sight
I been playing defense but I'm still losing this fight
Ok I tell myself tomorrow is another day
Then I wake up and realize that I'm still not ok
I can't even stand today
My head been so low so long that I feel that it's stuck this way
Strapped in these emotions roller coasting I can't navigate
Cast away
I'm just tryna take control
Hold my myself accountable when I know I can't save my soul
You been by my side since I was born I hate you had to go
I just been so angry that I feel I might go up in smoke
It's ok
What they tell me every time I'm bout to cry
Looking at myself and it get harder to identify
Tell people I'm good then get upset cause I know it's a lie
We living on borrowed time
Racing to the finish line
Can't even find my destination
Lord I swear my heat been pacing
Lost a source of light that's in my life and now my days are shady
Kiss and hug my wife cause she so strong and plus she so amazing
Knowing that my mom can't hold my son
I swear it really breaks me down
Yea
When I come alive, It like a rush
You can't soak up game, if you don't hush
Unh huh
I told God I'm hurt and I been stuck
But I never doubt him
Cause I know he coming clutch
Carry all this weight, to me it's light
Unh huh
Some night I still cry and that's alright
Unh huh
I've been of mind not out of sight
I been playing defense but I'm still losing this fight
When I come alive, It like a rush
You can't soak up game, if you don't hush
Unh huh
I told God I'm hurt and I been stuck
But I never doubt him
Cause I know he coming clutch
Carry all this weight, to me it's light
Unh huh
Some nights I still cry and that's alright
Unh huh
I've been of mind not out of sight
I been playing defense but I'm still losing this fight