ilysteph - don't let me go Lyrics

I have a dream so late at night
Where I die when I'm alive
I make sure you're sleeping tight
Tears they pour out from my eyes
My world is fake, I live a lie
I know you see through my disguise
Sometimes I wish, though it ain't right
That I don't see the morning light
And if I die before I wake
Lord I pray my soul to take
At least I'm free from all this pain, I always said you'd be okay
It might be hard for you to hear
But I refuse to live in fear
All your love I'm holding dear
I won't make it through the year
All those problems from my past
In my face when I turn my back
Terrified I stare, they laugh
All my loved ones dressed in black
Dressed in bla-a-ack
I don't sleep, I can't relax
The drugs don't work and my vision's bad
I can't lie, I miss my dad
But what would I do to get him back
My God, he loves me, this I know
For my mother told me so
What I reap I'm bound to sow
Just show me love, help me grow
Just help me grow
Just help me grow
Don't let me go