Illuminoctave Eminentave - The Essence of Misery Lyrics

When I was young
So did shine the sun
The relationship was immediate
And to you I was obedient
But soon the winter came
As with dark clouds and pours of rain
My emotions did turn cold
Anger and hatred consumed my mold
I've ever known you
You were as clear as the air
And in the silence
I could hear you everywhere
But now this sickness is spreading
And consuming me
As the walls turn in on me
It's getting difficult to breathe
Father Illuminance
Where is your presence?
This is torture mentally
It's the essence of misery, misery
Father Illuminator
You are the creator
I seek thy afterglow
But where can I run to, where can I go?
Father of all creation
I pray for your illumination
You are the true light source
But where is your life force?
This is torture mentally
It's the essence of misery
I just cannot endure
I need your light to break forth, break forth
This is torture mentally
It's the essence of misery
But here in my solitude
I feel your light begin to break through