iAmNotARobot - Making Rasta Pasta Lyrics

Tell me what you want, it'll happen right now

Everything I dreamed of happened out of town

Ran away from home I'll come back when I'm dead

I dont believe in death no one is really dead

Shouldn't of dog food, that shit went to yo head

Every day passed by is another time spent

Slithering without you living in sin

Come into my life and we'll meet The best end

Middle of a road 4 corners which end

If I let you take the lead would you just treat me like your friend?

Things that aren't me I pretend tend tend

I'm not over you I've just been very distant

Thoughts cascading into forms of unending

It's just feeling like a curse I was born in a prison

Drive 10 hours just to rip me from my arms

I've never known comfort and it's just my own fault

Everybody makes mistakes I dont mind on the surface

In my mind's minds eye I shake my head till its hurting

Whistling to no one I hope no one heard it

And if someone wants to love me then I think I won't hurt

Not the type to yell nor argue nor love you

I've been forever distant I dont think I've ever flirted

I had visions on acid that my life is in a circle

I peeled back the same sheets nestled deep within my covers

A thousand times and running doesn't stop unless I want it

I want to be an innovator

I want to feel the joy of comfort

I want to learn feel emotions and be hurt by a woman

I want to learn to feel emotions and be loved by a woman

I have nestled superstitions, so often I'm reclusive

I tell lies to myself but I never make excuses

Not impressed with myself until I change the world twice

Am I living in delusion or is Jesus by my side

I re-read the Bible I think that he lives within me

With all the other beings and my long lost family

Got a message from the dark and your face came to me

Saw you last week and you aint say shit to me

Treat you like a saint when I know you get slutty

Your speaking voice is soft and you never seem to judge me

Is that all that it takes? Well I guess I am a sucker

Dont nobody know my face Im a smooth mother f*cker

This my thousandth life back to them same covers

Ignorance is bliss but it's also just as endless

To live inside a loop but never know you live in it

Afterlife is new I can be the first tenant

How to get there when I'm making rasta pasta

To escape humanity I must escape into the mountains

Or perhaps into the books and let my spirit be the fountain

That brings parables of peace and understanding to my psyche

Am I really capable or is my life out to smite me

Synchronicities increase and there's this energy inside

That's the hardest to explain it just feels like moving lightning

The hardest to accept, I barely even think you like me

Hope my words aren't hopeful, but the honesty is honest

To feel death inside the ground and be rebirthed like Adonis

The one time I bought you flowers is when I saw your honest smiling

Never one to leave telegraph that I know it

You claimed you had love what an indecent way to show it

Though I'm with you on this pillow I'm alone and it's hurtful

I love you deep inside but I'll never tell or show you

I think you're so pretty but sometimes I think you're not

My mind's a contradiction that I always close off

My left ear hears the song the right ear hears the world

If I had all that I desire would I still desire the world

I wouldn't cuz I dont, I want freedom more than hope

I can't stay in one place because I'm scared to have a home

How belonging to a group and having traits by which you're known

Sounds like infinitudes of torture where I'll never be alone

If my demise is televised I'll terrorize the first row

With wistful friends the Grateful Dead will have their fun at your expense

All seats will be empty, separated from the man

I watched the circle eat the cube I haven't been the same since

But I remain the same one with split sides and two legs

Who walks above and underneath to go make bets with all my friends

The job I have is not important, I save glory for the land

Watch the land become my skin as it decays and disappears

Trained my mind to be gracious how I hate to be with them

I trained my mind to be absorbent now I finally understand

I watched you walk away with smiles as I pretend to understand

If love is everlasting we could always meet again