Everday I wake up in a new state of mind
I dont know who's time I'm wasting its gotta be mine
I just wanna tell myself that I'm gonna be fine
I'm a do it right
I'm a get it right
Everytime I'm questioning I'm questioning myself
Looking at my bank account and thinking "I need help"
I just want to thank you Santa and all of your elves
I am sorry mom
I am sorry dad
I wanna go back
I wanna give back
I wanna show you that I care but I can't do that
I am really busy with myself I can't do that
I'm a get the bag
I'm a stack it up and laugh
When I was a kid everything was perfect to me
Staying up at night with dad and putting on some scary movies
And you got me everything I wanted know you love me truly
And you kissed me on my forehead and "I know you can do it"
Still with all this love I was not like other kids
I was very peculiar and I never fitted in
I was not like them
They was not like me
But im finna standout and say f*ck you f*cking people
I'm a get it if its legal
I'm a f*cking bitch stealer
I'm a f*cking real killer
I'm a make it imma get big
I'm a have a house with a gate
I'm a house with two bentleys, a bmw, and a Lamborghini urus, and im gonna get it straight
Imma paint one bentley white
Nobody can tell that im not cause this is my life
This my f*cking life and nobody can take that from me
No ones gonna f*cking stop me
No ones gonna f*cking judge me
No ones gonna hate me im the best i send it up
Got so much confidence they think I should give it up
Got so much arrogance that I can't live up
To the picture of me in my head I'll never be enough, damn
Everday I wake up in a new state of mind
I dont know whos time I'm wasting its gotta be mine
I just wanna tell myself that I'm gonna be fine
I'm a do it right
I'm a get it right
Everytime im questioning I'm questioning myself
Looking at my bank account and thinking "I need help"
I just want to thank you Santa and all of your elves
I am sorry mom
I am sorry dad
Stackin the money I'm making the bread
Spend all my money right here in my bed
I wonder what they would do if I was dead
If I was dead would that drive you crazy
Sometimes I wanna cry just like a baby
Would I be a good dad am I too lazy
And I got no hoes
99 problems and none of them hoes
I'm in my closet compressed by my clothes
I wonder if my talent even shows
Ask for the man im the one who arrose
The juana really helps but it cannot hide the thoughts
Living in the negatives regretting what I bought
I see into my dreams when im flying off the pot
Teach me how to fish, I'll show you what I caught
Everday I wake up in a new state of mind
I dont know whos time I'm wasting its gotta be mine
I just wanna tell myself that I'm gonna be fine
Imma do it right
Imma get it right
Everytime I'm questioning im questioning myself
Looking at my bank account and thinking "I need help"
I just want to thank you Santa and all of your elves
I am sorry mom
I am sorry dad