I never thought I'd feel
This way all along
I keep my secrets
And cover them in lies
Lost in the tunnel, I can't see the light
I'm feeling so f*cked there's no turning back
Tried to escape but I'm still breaking down
My shadows came back
And they're clouding my eyes
Come and save me from the ghosts of my past
I'm getting dizzy knowing they're always back
A broken record stuck on the same track
The silence in my head is getting so loud
I never thought I'd feel
This way all along
I keep my secrets
And cover them in lies
I can't let go of the sadness deep down
Every night's a chance to leave it behind
It's making me doubt of everything else
Will I just give up, will I reach the end?
Hoping to find the missing piece
Emptiness is getting stronger
I feel myself going under
Desperate to breathe again
Can't find a way to stop
This hole growing inside
Day after day
I'm drowning in the depths
There might be an ember
That remains to ignite
But I've gone too long without a smile
A heart so cold on the inside
I've been so weak and naive
More times than I'd like to admit
Wasting time on throwing stones
I throw myself into the flames
I never thought I'd feel
This way all along
I never thought I'd feel
This way all along
I keep my secrets
And cover them in lies
I can't let go of the sadness deep down
Every night's a chance to leave it behind
It's making me doubt of everything else
Will I just give up, will I reach the end?
Nothing gets better, but I can pretend
Because I wanna feel again
What it's like to throw it all away
Because I think I got nothing left
I tried to pretend to be someone else
I need to find out who I really am
If only tomorrow was a mile away
I know that I'd find my way out again
I never thought I'd feel
This way all along