Hydro - Purpose Lyrics

No matter how hard I try
I can't find peace of mind
My life don't feel like its meant to be
And I can't find a centerpiece

I used to have nightmares
And ideas
Of dreams that never come to life
No matter how hard I try

Lookin' through my lens
It's not fair, I been out there
Looking for a purpose
Running from the fact that I'm scared

Running from my fears
Cause you're not here
To help me go through
Recovery

My scars are Showin'
My sleeve's a vacant planet
Haven't had my heart on it
Since you were taking advantage

My scars are Showing
My heart was open
But now it's frozen
And you cannot reverse the damage

Sleep with the lights on
Awake with them off
Living in the dark
I'm afraid of my thoughts

Take me high
And drop me there
On my way back down
I'll taste the air

Act like I'm fine so they don't find out
For like half of my life I never had someone nice
And on the flip side I rap and get high
Yeah I wonder what would happen if I ask for advice

Yeah you said that you would call me
When we talk you just insult me
Got me parred off like we're golfing.
And I've started to hate all things

I'm alone like a sailor lost at sea
All I really have are some songs to sing
The only the things that stick with me
And listen to the way I feel

Tell 'em I need help
They say it's for attention
So I fight it by myself and its
Never to be mentioned

No one wanna listen
No one wanna care
I swear if I could've fixed it
I'd already be repaired

Take me high and drop me there
On my way back down ill taste the air

On my way down
On my way down
All of my doubts
Make me feel weighed down