Hunxho - Before The Album Lyrics

I go so hard, why I'm so hard, this on myself, kid
I don't talk a lot, still got a lot of shit I never said
My ups and downs, this shit ain't even, still stay level-head
I know they bleed just like I bleed, so I ain't never scared
Get paid for tragedy, put my plaque all on my deathbed, yeah
I love my block and I been gone, but I ain't never left, yeah
Been holdin' grudges on my daddy 'cause he ain't never said sorry
Put this metal on his melon, nigga ever say somethin'
Say somethin', got a thing for red rum
In my head so messed up, when I think
Get in the car and pull out, that bitch lift up
Heart been broke so many times like how the hell I still love? Yeah
They could never take somethin' God gave me, got a heart
Believe in me, I had it hard, don't go against me
I be tryna act happy around my son, he feed off energy
I be seein' the hurt inside my mama, shit be killin' me
I been busy, Lord, just let my sisters know I got 'em
Niggas with me, these more like my brothers, not my partners, yeah
I wish Dre could see me now, it hurt me when they shot him dead
Watchin' out for snakes inside my grass, these niggas copperheads
Ridin' in my cars, I know I'm legal
But I ain't tryna go to jail, so I still watch for 12
Got Ash and Pluck, this shit forever, it got me outta jail
Collect calls to my mama, sayin' I'll never tell
Mama, you raised me well
Mama raised me right, I did wrong on my own
Got a house in every county, but I can't call this place home, it ain't my block
2200, it's on my eyes and this shit locked
Ghost all on my gun, no serial number, but this a Glock, nigga
Rel, I blame myself that I couldn't save you
I'm still tryna figure out where they had chased you
And that shit killed you, and that shit killed me
I'm good, my kids love me, I don't care about who fear me
They think where we come from, we ain't got hearts, we still cry
If niggas tried this shit two years ago, we still slidin'
This shit off my head, this real pain, I don't steal lines
Still say to my mama sorry that I chose violence
This shit won't stop, mama
Catch him outside and gotta spin they block, mama
But my neck water like the bottom of the dock, mama
Know what go around come around just like a clock, mama
That mean if I spin, I go again until they shot, mama
I still make shit happen
And I pray that God judge me off my heart, not my actions
I go to sleep and I see demons
Please don't wake me up, I'm fightin' 'em off, I'm still dreamin'
Woah
And I don't care to be the hardest
I'm tusk tough just like a walrus
And this on gang, we ain't the gang that you want war with
Nothin' don't last forever, but while I'm here, I'ma enjoy it
I'm lyin'
I worked so hard for all this money to give 'em every dime
Can't say you call me and I ain't pick up, nigga, every time
Just one more strike and then I'm out, shit, I'm like Barry Bonds
Shit, I got rich, prepared for war, I bought like every gun
Tryna save my niggas, they so deep, shit, they won't leave the slums
I say I love you, then I mean it, I ain't tryna lead you on
Before I ever do you wrong, baby, I'll leave you 'lone

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
It's like
I been recordin' in the dark, it's like this the only way I can get this shit out
Huh, Before The Album

Yeah, recordin' in the dark (dark, yeah)
They'll never understand that I'm a man, and for a man, this shit get hard
Recordin' in the dark
I'm still standin' where I landed, but sometimes, I wish that I could walk on water
Recordin' in the dark
Some of my dogs ain't get to grow up
Through it all, I'm like the falcons, I still rose up
Recordin' in the dark (the dark, yeah)
I rap, so I bought chains, but I might give 'em back, can't let these people hold us
Recordin' in the dark

Part of me, won't let them be a part of me
Shit hard for me, not easy, I go hard, too many reasons
I don't know why you steady trippin'
But for why? I ain't even with you
And for why? To take care of my children
Fame and money, this shit'll get you
This shit kill me
I been wearin' this rap mask for so long, I can't even be the real me
I can't even talk about it, a lot of this shit, I keep it in me
And I still sin, but not like how I used to, God, forgive me (God)
And I love my kids to death, but I move cautious now with Jimmy
Why the f*ck would I forgive you? (Why?), you don't care about my enemies (uh-huh)
You tryna take this shit away that I built to take care of my children
But I can't move off of revenge, I talk to God, then get it in
I'll tell 'em take my leg before I ever take the stand
Still outside with gun in hand
Palm, heater keep me warm, uh-huh
Tryin', but I don't know what I'm doin'
Tryin', but I don't know where I'm goin'
I don't care 'bout if they envy me, they enemy, no endin' me
I bet these folks remember me

Yeah, recordin' in the dark (yeah, yeah)
They'll never understand that I'm a man, and for a man, this shit get hard
Recordin' in the dark
I'm still standin' where I landed, but sometimes, I wish that I could walk on water
Recordin' in the dark
Some of my dogs ain't get to grow up
Through it all, I'm like the falcons, I still rose up
Recordin' in the dark (yeah, yeah)
I rap, so I bought chains, but I might give 'em back, can't let these people hold us
Recordin' in the dark

Ah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Ah, yeah, yeah, yeah

"Ayy, Xho, keep goin', you better not give up," boy, I can't
I used to rob, I'm still outside when niggas ain't
"Ayy, Xho, you bigger, tell me, why you tryna go slide?
Like you don't remember when police hit you, you almost died"
Ayy, look, I know, but I still do this shit for me
I stand on six, so I gotta do this shit for P (that's on Blood)
"You almost made it out these streets, why you don't leave, nigga?"
'Cause I can never forgive myself, that's if I leave niggas

It's hard to save my money up, I still be thuggin'
When I get mad, I still go slide, I know I'm buggin'
Old lady mask on, got the micro in the bucket (got that Drac')
When my favorite opp get out, he dyin', that's on my bucket
"Nigga, you got big as hell, for real, why you don't chill?
You just bought your mom a Lamb' truck, boy, that shit big"
I don't give no f*cks, my niggas be thuggin' in that ville still
If she meetin' me, why the f*ck you act like you don't hear shit?
Stop actin' like it's hard for you, your cars came with the kill switch
They can't afford that (on Blood)
You been in jail like five times, you plan on goin' back
But I ain't goin' back, oh, yeah, I'm knowin' that
For real, who doin' that? And what about Dre? You owe him that
And what 'bout D? What 'bout C? What 'bout Zay?
Them my niggas, we was thuggin' on my block every day, that's on God
How the f*ck my nigga catch a RICO charge? Like free my boy
Why the hell you still on 2nd Ave? You 'posed to be on tour
'Posed to be on course, focus, nigga
Lot of shit you ask, you ain't got to, know I'm chosen, nigga
No, I ain't got to, why you gon' act like you don't know fthat nigga?
You stay gamblin' with your life and that shit blow a nigga
'Cause if you disappear, I disappear, let's keep it real
Tryna get mom a mil' and move up to them hills
You right, I was just f*cked up, and now I got a deal
But I can't get it out my head, murder, murder, kill
You gotta change, this ain't for you, this shit for us
This shit for mama, this shit for Ashley and Pluck
This for my Auntie Sonia, this shit for your son
You right, I gotta change my life, but I might gun you down

"Ayy, Xho, keep goin', you better not give up," boy, I can't
I used to rob, I'm still outside when niggas ain't
"Ayy, Xho, you bigger, tell me, why you tryna go slide?
Like you don't remember when police hit you, you almost died"
Ayy, look, I know, but I still do this shit for me
I stand on six, so I gotta do this shit for P (shit for P)
"You almost made it out these streets, why you don't leave, nigga?"
'Cause I can never forgive myself, that's if I leave niggas

Weekend, we f*ckin', oh
On the weekend, I love you, girl, yeah
Weekend
Can't blame them
I know it's my fault, that's if I fall off, can't fall off
(That's if I fall off, can't fall off)
(That's if I fall off, can't fall off)
(That's if I-) yeah

I come from the worst side, put in work all on the East end
I come from the hurt side, and it hurts, I feel it deep in
I know not to ask God, but it hurts, God, what's the reason?
I know you been hurt, but I only need you for the weekend
On the weekend, on the weekend, on the weekend, bae, I love you (on the weekend)
On the weekend, on the weekend, on the weekend, we f*ckin', oh (on the weekend)
To the outside, we nothin', but on the weekends, we somethin'
Two guns like P do, in my weak hand, I'm clutchin', Lord, Lord, Lord
I ain't gotta save just to ball, ball, ball
You ain't in my ear, you just thought, just call, call
I ain't got no hate in my heart, I love all
And I ain't tryna be nothin' like these other rappers
I wasn't nobody, I couldn't never get no love from rappers
And now I'm poppin', they all postin'
But I ain't no rapper, turn 'em all ghost to me

I can't be stuck in the middle with niggas
Ain't tryna click up with niggas
Pictures or nothin', ain't tryna kick it with 'em
You see me, you see me, then keep movin'
'Cause this thirty on my Glock, know this shit longer than a movie, need an Oscar
Switch all on my Glock, he get a whooping, need his baba
They see me do it, then they go and do it, I'm they papa
When I f*ck, she call me daddy, but I just know she ain't my daughter
I forgive, but don't forget, I gave forgiveness to my father, Lord
And I be locked in, shackles
And I be locked in, rappin'
I know they be locked in, actin'
Just like Will or somethin'
Robbed a nigga, went up like I signed a deal or somethin'
I can make a hundred thousand look like a mil', on God
And I be damned if my kids ever miss a meal, on God
I stayed down and now I'm poppin' just like pills, on God
This shit ridiculous, how Hunxho so relentless
Zabo halfway home, but B just caught his sentencing
OG came back, can't hold my big dog in the prison
I was on that block, ain't have no big dog, had to get it, Lord, Lord, Lord
I know it's all on me if I fall, can't fall off
I know it's all on me if I call, can't call y'all

Yeah, you oh so toxic
I don't know what you doin', baby girl, don't stop it
You know what I do to you, yeah
You know what you do to me, I'm the hot topic
Go, go, go is what you better do
Slow, slow, slow, do what I'm tellin' you
I need your body, yeah, we vibin'
I need what I need, yeah, be solid

F*ck me 'til we deep sleep, we zombie
Oh, she like bad boys? She a Rihanni
Oh, she like fashion? Hit her designer
Lord, he a problem, talkin' 'bout no solvin'
She roll with me, stay down 'til my road out
Oh, she get fly by herself, no pilot
You ain't gotta die by yourself, I got you
Rolls, gotta go to backseat, I'm not drivin'
Yellow on the Jeep truck, no pollen
We don't ever need them other bitches, we vibin'
I been in the latest, never come for my stylist
Forever appreciate her, girl, I'm lovin' your body
Nigga ever play with you, girl, this shit'll get bloody
You can pick a car, but you ain't never gotta drive it
Drive it, drive it, drive it, drive it
Drive it, drive it, drive it, drive it
Drive it, drive it, drive it, drive it
Drive it, drive it, drive it, drive it

Yeah, you oh so toxic
I don't know what you doin', baby girl, don't stop it
You know what I do to you, yeah
You know what you do to me, I'm the hot topic
Go, go, go is what you better do
Slow, slow, slow, do what I'm tellin' you
I need your body, yeah, we vibin'
I need what I need, yeah, be solid

Should I fall back?
I give what I receive, lately, I ain't been feelin' loved at all, jack
Should I fall back?
Every time you pull me closer, it be feelin' closer to over
Like, should I fall back? (Fall back?)
When shit was gettin' hard, you had turned around, you gave me all back
Like, should I fall back? (Should I fall back?)
Yeah, you hurt me at my lowest
Like, when I put on gloves and I go all black
Like, should I fall back? (Fall back?)
The shit you did to me, like, if I did that to you, what would you call that?
Should I fall back? (Should I fall back?)
Or should I move closer? But close be feeling closer to over, fall back

You don't ever answer when I call you, fall back
You givin' me reasons to dog you, I fall back
You don't never be there when I need you, fall back
Can never get in touch when I wan' see you, I fall back
(My baby, my baby, fall)
(Fall back, my baby)

F*ck, fight, fall out, then repeat
F*ck, fight, fall out, then repeat
We do it over and over and over, I'm tired
It's over, no more of it, I fall back this time (fall back this time)
F*ck, fight, fall out, then repeat
Is we f*ckin' or fightin', or fallin'? What's G?
I remember days when you was all over me
But it's over, it's over, I'm done reminiscin'
If you deserve better, go and do better (go and do better)
'Cause they'll walk all over you, that's if you let 'em (that's if you let 'em)
I showed real love, like, what's a love letter?
But bae, it's Big Xho and don't nobody f*ck better, on me

Should I fall back?
I give what I receive, lately, I ain't been feelin' loved at all, jack
Should I fall back?
Every time you pull me closer, it be feelin' closer to over
Like, should I fall back? (Fall back?)
When shit was gettin' hard, you had turned around, you gave me all back
Like, should I fall back? (Should I fall back?)
Yeah, you hurt me at my lowest
Like, when I put on gloves and I go all black
Like, should I fall back? (Should I fall back?)
The shit you did to me, like, if I did that to you, what would you call that?
Should I fall back?
Or should I move closer? But close be feeling closer to over, fall back

You don't ever answer when I call you, fall back
You givin' me reasons to dog you, I fall back
You don't never be there when I need you, fall back
Can never get in touch when I wan' see you, I fall back
(My baby, my baby, fall)
(Fall back, my baby)

Hmm-mmm-mmm
Yeah

Couple niggas changed up, stayed down, then I came up
I had just came home, my nigga Dre had got banged up
This shit get wicked
I be showin' love, 'cause ain't no love in my city
Unless you come from my side
And they be lookin' in, but they don't know, 'cause they from outside, huh
I ain't been bickin' back, lately, I been gettin' back
'Cause I remember times when I ain't have it, they left me in the back
And when we go out, they don't search us, let us in the back
I be stayin' to myself, fake shit, I ain't into that
I be stayin' to myself, they hate to see you winnin' bad
Don't make none of my niggas mad, you play and they get on your ass
Remember times I lost
Now the house I'm in, they can't evict me, 'cause it's bought
Get up with me
Ain't no more runnin' from police, now they want pictures with me
I love my hood, but I been busy, so it's been a minute
I still can go there
Post up, do a show there
I don't really need no gun, 'cause where I'm at, my opps can't go there
I'm out in Cali, Houston, Texas, Dallas, ballin' like the Mavericks
And I miss home so much
When I go back, I'll probably bring a hundred thou' just to throw it all in Magic
'Cause I can do that, two million dollars, blew that
I'll buy a hundred pair before I ask you where my shoe at
"Ayy, Xho, why you spend money?"
You act like you don't remember times when I wasn't gettin' money
Nigga, now ain't shit funny
Now everything I got, I own, they can't take shit from me
And they can't never say Xho fell off, it been six summers
I'm still goin' up, I ain't lookin' back
I been livin' good, God, I barely get mad
Only time I really get mad is when a bitch trip
And she only gettin' mad when she don't get shit
Now I'm crazy, now I can't see my baby
I don't even respond, leave it to God and stay patient
I spent too much money for this house to be vacant
But I know if I was home, then I wouldn't make shit
And I know if I was broke, then they wouldn't save me
I'm the one who pick up slack and put the weight all on my back
And put the work in, why the f*ck is you complainin'?
Every time, know I come through every time
If I don't come through one time, then they gon' act like I ain't did nothin'
Every time, know I come through every time
Put the work in every time, don't you think I need a lil' somethin'?
F*ck that, I'm still takin' the burden
I been givin' that shit out, you know I know that ain't worth it
When I'm knowin' what you did and you know that shit hurt me
I ain't sayin' I'm a god, Lord knows I ain't perfect
What you need? I got it
I ain't none of these niggas, what I do for you, won't speak about it
And the business, that's our business, you gotta keep 'em out it
If you'll let an outsider in, you'll take the stand and say you seen a body
When I spend time, they say they love me
But I ain't dumb, they only love when I spend money, I gotta get it
And I ain't gettin' no younger, and time tickin'
What you gon' do when I ain't done? Nigga, not really
You couldn't walk inside my shoes, not for nan' minute
And f*ck whoever hate me, just tell 'em nothin', see me
Xho could break it down some more, but I know y'all get it
(Yeah I know that y'all get it, yeah I know that y'all-)

Hmm
This ain't even an album, this shit before the album
(Damn, Kai, you goin' crazy)

They say more life, the more blessings
I say more money, more problems and this shit keep gettin' harder for me
And I'm still fightin' depression
Can't even talk to my mama, why I don't pick up when she callin' for me, yeah
How it feel, can't let it go, how it feel, they'll never know, Lord
Say I got a cold heart, bitches, they don't want love
How it feel, can't let it show, how it feel, ain't givin' no love
I feel that I want more, I feel that I'm so torn
How you feel? Just let me know
How it feel? Just let me know somethin'
You don't let me know nothin'
But you say it's all love
(Let me know somethin', let me know somethin')
(Let me know somethin', let me know)

Yeah
Everybody hate Xho, they ain't Xho (hate Xho, they ain't Xho)
When we talk, I'm so quick to hang up
And I remember everything, I got a hangover
I'll never tell my side, they'll hear the same stories
Everybody hate Xho, they hate Xho, I don't hate y'all (I don't hate y'all)
And I can see it clearly, but I ain't Ray Charles

They say more life, then more blessings
I say more money, more problems and this shit keep gettin' harder for me
And I'm still fightin' depression
Can't even talk to my mama, why I don't pick up when she callin' for me, yeah, yeah
How it feel, can't let it go, how it feel, they'll never know, Lord
Say I got a cold heart, bitches, they don't want love
How it feel, can't let it show, how it feel, ain't givin' no love
I feel that I want more, I feel that I'm so torn (so torn, so torn, so)
(I'm so torn, I'm so torn)
How you feel? Just let me know
How it feel? Just let me know somethin'
You don't let me know nothin'
But you say it's all love (say it's all)
(You say it's all love, yeah, you say it's all love)

Ain't gon' say that I'm the hardest, but I done came the farthest
New Jeep truck, I came a long way from walkin'
My neck on water, God, like a dolphin
And I been ballin', Lord, like the Dolphins
No, you can't cross me, Lord, I'm a crosser
Know you say you love me, girl, I'm a dogger
I hate bitches, broke my heart, but it cost 'em
Lord, I ain't broke no more and it feel awesome
Girl, I'm at work right now, don't you call me
Demons on my shirt, yeah Lord, get 'em off me
Shit was f*cked up for a minute, not jolly
I know they wanna bury Hunxho like Haile
I been tryna ball on these niggas like volley
I don't rap, I just preach to the streets like gospel
Dead dead, I ain't talkin' 'bout dead like possum
Turnt up, I'm all on TV like Joselyn
Watch me, binoculars, can't stop me like rainin'
If you love me, then stay, girl, don't leave like my daddy
I been makin' trips every week, light baggin'
Throw these rappers' songs in the trash like maggots
Get her ass did by the best, not plastic
How I put a TV in the car? Shit plasma
F*ck her real good 'til she have an orgasm
The truck stay full, so I ain't never gotta gas it
Waitin' on these beats, how the hell I'm asthmatic?
Titans on my neck and my diamonds been classic
Don't be askin' me what niggas doin', I ain't ask 'em
Every song I make, the shit be harder than the last one
Nigga wanna beef and I'ma eat, no, I ain't not fastin'
Hunxho Houdini, ho know I make magic
I bet niggas see me the day I get mad
Don't think I ever made a bad song and I'm not braggin', yeah-yeah