Holy Sons - Payoff Lyrics

I spent my time and too much stress
Staring at horizons, when I wanna eject
It made me mad, never thought I'd get madder
But I'm madder still
Still looking for the payoff
Still looking for the payoff, looking for the payoff

But the payoff eludes
And there's never any resting, relaxing, or loving
And I'm writing from your eyes, too
So I wanna get loaded, gotta find release
While more and more die
Don't make any loud noises
While I'm looking for the payoff, looking for the payoff
While I'm looking for the payoff

I'm mentally prepared
All I've gotta do is waste away
All I've gotta do is waste away
I'm mentally prepared
All I've gotta do is waste away