Here's to the last time
That I allow myself
To be haunted
By the shadows of the past
I'm taking my life back
A youth spent oppressed
Beaten, battered
And always depressed
Let down by those
Who were supposed to care
The ones who left
Instead of being there
I feel like I am drowning
In a sea of liars and snakes
Surrounded by all
The bullshit I can't erase
And I've tried my f*cking best
To rise above the hate
And break the chains
That bind me to this place
Yet I've realized there's no escape
And I once thought
That I had it all figured out
It's 10 years later
And I'm still so f*cking lost
When will I wake up
From this never-ending nightmare
Cause I've been trapped in hell
Locked away with all my fears
I'll watch this whole world burn
Before I lie back
And in the end
You'll be left here with nothing
Go take your bullshit elsewhere
I left the past behind
You're on your own
I'll watch this whole world burn
Before I give up what little progress
I have made on the path
To something greater
A promise I intend to keep
These words still hold meaning
And I'll do whatever it takes
To keep myself from drowning
Sometimes it's hard
Keeping my head above water
With all this deadweight
Pulling down on me
I've reached my breaking point
These fractured bones may never heal
I'm losing faith
It's all the same
Every path I choose just leads to pain
Time to shed the mask
I'm taking my life back
And I once thought
That I had it all figured out
It's 10 years later
And I'm still so f*cking lost
When will I wake up
From this never-ending nightmare
Cause I've been trapped in hell
Locked away with all my fears
I'll watch this whole world burn
Before I lie back
And in the end
You'll be left here with nothing
Go take your bullshit elsewhere
I left the past behind
You're on your own