Highly Suspect - MCID Album Lyrics

Don't like the way that I look
I don't like the way that I feel
I'm acting like everything's cool
But maybe it's time I start keeping it real
I've thought about killing myself
I've thought about ending it all
I've thought about standing on top of my building in
Brooklyn and seeing how long it would take me to fall
I'm scared
And I'm losing my patience
I wanna feel weightless
I hate this
What's up? Ey
Don't know why I'm so f*cked up
It sucks, ey
Maybe I'm over-dramatic
But I'm just keeping it real
I'm not always okay
I don't know how to deal
I wish I had someone to give me some love
I wish I had someone to give me a hug
I'm sick of the liquor and sick of the drugs
I wish I could just stop f*cking up
Dear Johnny, be honest
You can change if you want it
And let me tell you something else that's true
There's no one else that's just like you
Dear Johnny, be real
It's okay to feel
One day you're going to hear this song
And laugh because you stayed so strong
Got a brother I know that I don't call enough
"Hey baby boy, what's up, I miss you so much"
Got a father that raised me when shit got tough
But we don't really know how to talk about stuff
Got a mother I ain't seen in eighteen years
Just know that I forgive you, there's been too many tears
I hope I don't get any older
With this chip up on my shoulder
I think it's time I switched it all up
Dear Johnny, be honest
You can change if you want it
And let me tell you something else that's true
There's no one else that's just like you
Dear Johnny, be real
It's okay to feel
One day you're going to hear this song
And laugh because you stayed so strong
I'm falling away
From everything that's ever brought me down
I am the sound
Now I'm falling away
From everything that's ever brought me down
I am the sound
Now
Dear Johnny, be honest
You can change if you want it
And let me tell you something else that's true
There's no one else that's just like you
Dear Johnny, be real
It's okay to feel
One day you're going to hear this song
And laugh because you stayed so strong
Haha
I feel better already
Yeah
Think I just needed to get some shit off my chest
Wow
Thank you for listening
Thank you for being a part of our life
Shout out to Studio G
Shout out to Brooklyn
Shout out to Venice Beach
Shout out to Pam the cat
Shout out to Jolene the dog
And word to Eleven
Yeah, love you
This is a family
This is MCID
Hahaha

[Thanks to highlysuspect11 for adding these lyrics]

It took me 16 years to find ya
One  second to love ya
Seven  years to hold ya
One minute to lose ya
Oh, God
Where  did I go wrong?
Oh,  God

Do you remember
All  of the nasty shit you used to do with me?
'Cause I remember everything
And do you remember
When we hopped the P and B to NYC?
You  were only 17

But that puppy love is over
We're so much older
Nothing's ever gonna feel the same way
That it did when we were younger
I wish that I could hold ya
Baby, I know it's over
We're never gonna feel it again


It took me 16 years to find ya
One second to love ya
Seven years to hold ya
One minute to lose ya
Oh, God, eh
Where did I go wrong? Yeah

Do you remember
Oh, when I was your king and you were my queen?
Yeah, 'cause I remember everything
Do you remember
When you told me you were holding my future kid? Eh
And all the joy that that would bring
Well I thought I was the father
But baby, it's not my daughter
'Cause baby's a different color
And baby, I'm not a brother
It was just too much to swallow
You ripped my heart out

But that puppy love is over
We're so much older
Nothing's ever gonna feel the same way
That it did when we were younger
I wish I could hold ya
But baby, I know that it's over
We're never gonna feel it again

Well, it took me 16 years to find ya
One second to love ya
Seven years to hold ya
And just one minute to lose ya
Oh, God, yeah
Where did I go wrong? Yeah
Like where did you go? Oh

And I'll say
I'm sorry if I ever see you again, oh (Oh whoa, oh)
'Cause on that day, I'll walk away
When you probably needed a friend

It took me 16 years to find ya
One second to love ya
I don't trust you
But I still love ya
Oh, God
Where did I go wrong?
Where did you go?
Where did I go wrong?
Baby, it took me 16 years to find ya
But only a second to love ya
Seven years to hold ya
And just one minute to lose ya
Oh, God, yeah
Where did I go wrong? Yeah
Where did you go? Yeah

Where did we go wrong?
Said, where did we go wrong?
Where did I go wrong? Yeah
Oh yeah

You say that you love me
But I don't wanna be your slave
So many people judge me
But would they follow me to my grave?
You say that you love me, ay
But only if I stay the same
Baby, I'm leaving, ay
"Cause I don't wanna play these games

I got a lot on my mind
I got a lot on my plate
I got these people around me
Say that they love me, most of them fake
It feels like they want me to fail
It feels like they want me to die
It feels like they want all my money
But f*ck 'em, they wasting their time
Like walk around the Riverbend with me
Let me tell you all the things I've seen
Seen a boy that's dying in front of me
And I'm the reason that he had to bleed
For what? So you could get on my grim
So you could pick me apart
Tell me how I should make art?
Nah you don't get this heart

You say that you love me (dirt boy, dirt life, dirt bike, whip!)
But I don't wanna be your slave
So many people judge me (dirt boy, dirt life, dirt bike, whip!)
But would they follow me to my grave?
You say that you love me (dirt boy, dirt life, dirt bike, whip!)
But only if I stay the same
Baby, I'm leaving (dirt boy, dirt life, dirt bike, whip!)
'Cause I don't wanna play these games

Ay yo, Slime!
No, I don't wanna play these games
No, I don't wanna play these games, no
This Slime language she won't learn my slang, whoa
If this really wasn't love, what it was?
You had me tricking off
And throwing in the club, yeah
I bought you black diamonds, baby
Now you f*cked, yeah
And I'd rather have lust than love
Blind to the fact you're with Thug
You won't judge

But you say that you love me
But I don't wanna be your slave
So many people judge me
But would they follow me to my grave?
You say that you need me (dirt boy, dirt life, dirt bike, whip!)
Based on yesterday
Baby, I'm leaving, ay (dirt boy, dirt life, dirt bike, whip!)
But never gonna be a slave

This dirt boy, this dirt life
These are black boots
It's a black knife
This is born woods
This is raised wolf
This has moved hoods
This a change life
Never talked to my mother
I wish I heard from my father
I used to try , but why bother
Yeah, they can talk to my lawyer
This loose change about loose pills
These loose girls, they got true skills
They say you changed with the new brain
Well, the truth hurts, man love kills
I've been around, don't f*ck around
You f*ck around and get real killed
Got real friends, got real guns
I'm not a bad guy but it's real deal, whip!

You say that you love me (dirt boy, dirt life, dirt bike, whip!)
But I don't wanna be your slave
So many people judge me (dirt boy, dirt life, dirt bike, whip!)
But would they follow me to my grave?
You say that you love me (dirt boy, dirt life, dirt bike, whip!)
But only if I stay the same
Baby, I'm leaving (dirt boy, dirt life, dirt bike, whip!)
'Cause I don't wanna play these games

But you say that you love me
Many-many- judge me
I don't- I don't, play these games
No, I don't wanna play these games
'Cause I don't wanna play these games
No, I don't wanna play these games
I don't- I don't, play these games

Touch down in Arizona
Red eyes like stones
Bags heavy on the floor
Sex on the telephone
Still searching high and low
Somewhere for you in my dreams
Well, I thought I was closer
But I was only losing
My sense of touch and
We never did it sober
Time has a wounded heel
Only the feeling

Maybe our love
Maybe our love won't pass us by
What you've been through
What you've done too
No one can deny
But now I'm gonna try

Here lies another number
Etched in the wall of stones
Field of broken hearts
Power lines and creosote
Caught in a certain state
Where I thought I was closer
I was only losing
My sense of touch and
We never did it sober
But time has a wounded heel
Only revealing

Maybe our love
Maybe our love won't pass us by
What you've been through
What you've done too
No one can deny

And I could never be
What you want from me
So we'll die
But I've still got to try

(Eh, yeah)
I guess I gotta draw another line in the sand
(Ha) 'Cause there's blood on American hands
And now you're telling me it's
Just God's plan?
Well, f*ck that, f*ck shit
And f*ck God's plan (F*ck)
Ashes to ashes to ashes to ashes
I could burn it down with
A couple of burnt matches (Woo)
Madness, I keep a rifle
Underneath the mattress
With a blade just in case I gotta stab shit

I feel the whole world's pain, like
"What the f*ck?"
(Tearing up, I'm tearing up)
So I go out alone on the dance floor
And tear shit up (Tear it up)

Favorite number seven
Seven-seven what I'm reppin' (Gang)
Police tryna lock a nigga up
And block my blessings (Damn)
Wonder what's their method to the madness
Ayy i've been fighting all my life
I feel like Cassius Clay (Ali)
If I had a fire-breathing dragon
(What would you do?)
I would have him burn this
Whole shit to ashes (For what?)
Public schools ain't worth shit
The media distract us
If it don't pertain to them
They won't report what's tragic
(That's a fact)
But it's happening in the academy
Police teaching officers to shoot
You if you African
Tell you the truth, they pull me over
I ain't having it i'm packing it
They already look at us like savages
No, I'm not gon' look the other way (No way)
Let me tell you 'bout this shit
I seen the other day (What happened?)
Would keep my mouth closed
But this is not okay (No)
Baby girl slain and the killer got away
(yeah)

Yeah, face it, there's no love for the cops
Sick of all the innocent kids that get shot
Thinking of the innocent people behind bars
Systemic division designed to break hearts
And why not? It all come from the top
The modern day slavery business is hot
You're basically racist if you say it's not
I'll say it like it is and, no, will not stop
These old dudes, they can't keep an erection
Forced raped women to listen without question
Saying incest is just natural selection
(Huh?) you wanted tax cuts so you
Gave them the election (Woo)
They still send guns overseas (Pop, pop)
They still let veterans freeze
They have a Mar-a-Lago underneath
The palm trees
Middle fingers up to you zombies

I feel the whole world's pain, like
"What the f*ck?"
(Tearing up, I'm tearing up)
So I go out alone on the dance floor
And tear shit up (Tear it up)
And when I look down at my hands
They are covered in blood
(Covered in blood, covered in blood)
I feel the whole world's pain
Like "What the f*ck?"
(Tearing up, I'm tearing up)

Single, light a single candle in the window
Window, window (I'm losing my mind, yeah)
Single, let it burn, candle in the window
Window, window
One soul is a soul, a candle in the window
Window, window (Oh yeah, go)

Something's going on these days
I don't belong here anyways
Something feels wrong these days
I hate these days

Woah, I hate these days
It doesn't even matter anyways
Woah, I hate these days
Hey, I hate these days

Hello
Is there a reason why you're still breathing at all
I don't feel good
So
I don't think I'll pick up your call
No
You're so stupid

Woah, I hate these days
It doesn't even matter anyways
Woah, I hate these days
Huh, I hate these days

What
I don't wanna hear it 'cause you think I'm just a slut
But I loved you
Trust
I never lied to you, I told you what was up
And now I can't stand you
Sometimes I need to bust a nut
That doesn't mean I don't love you
So what
You saying that you wish that I was playing with your butt
I guess you can come over

Woah, I love these days
It doesn't even matter anyways
Woah, I hate these days
Nothing even matters it doesn't
Woah, I hate these days
It doesn't even matter anyways
Woah, I hate these days
Oh, I hate these days