Heinous - Tie a Noose Lyrics

Get a rope and tie a noose
Getting help is no use
Living but I'm dead inside
Hope I just can't find
Know it's been a shitty ride
F*cked my life but didn't hide
Don't think I'ma make it through
Way I am I didn't choose
Baby I'm not trying to do a repeat
Image in my mind
Bring me to my knees
Know there's something else I'm haunted
Dark spirits living in my closet
Lately I ain't been the same
Reaper's feeling like a friend
Know there's no one I can blame
But this hell has got to end
Thinking about my mistakes
Trauma flashing in my brain
God I know that I've sinned
But why I need this pain
Magic pills help me when I'm down
And I ain't been the same
Changed since you ain't been around
And I can't see the light like I could
It's always dark in my room
Light the night with the light from a full moon
Got my gun up to my head but never go through
Take more drugs than I should so I ain't got to choose
I'm fighting demons but I know that I'm gonna lose
Get a rope and tie a noose
Getting help is no use
Living but I'm dead inside
Hope I just can't find
Know it's been a shitty ride
F*cked my life but didn't hide
Don't think I'ma make it through
Way I am I didn't choose
I lost the ones that had me
Lately I've felt empty
Alot of people died
But I try and keep them with me
Emotions abnormal
I'm fighting with myself see
Used to scar skin
Just so I could watch myself bleed
I gave up on trying for a real real long time
Wanting to die I don't know why
The loss on my mind
I distance from the world
I distance from myself
I love my mental health
There is no way you can help
I know I'm selfish I can't help it
Want to end it, it ain't happen
Took too much so I know
I'd turned the lights out
But then I woke up
And I still can't see how
I got nothing to show for
So what if it's over
I don't want to make my mama cry
When it's over
Trying to outlive her, will I get there
Know I'm trying mama
But I'm running out of air
And this shits going to follow me
It's always there
Some things they will stay with you
I Swear
Right now I can't handle
Things that aren't simple
Trauma from my past now
Hard to handle
You can call me a madman
It don't make it right man
Know its abnormal
Fighting with myself man
Trying harder now
Than I have in my life
When I try and get up
I'm trapped without light
So get a rope and tie a noose
Got no hope its no use
And baby living with me is hell
When I'm good I'm not well
Tortured soul just won't sell
Will I live the time will tell
Get a rope and tie a noose
Getting help is no use
Living but I'm dead inside
Hope I just can't find
Know its been a shitty ride
F*cked my life but didn't hide
Don't think ima make it through
Way I am I didn't choose