Heinous - Dear Dad Lyrics

Thinking lately, can't remember
Your voice has faded
I remember, from the pictures
But your not really there
Dear father lately life's been a blur
No directions know I'm never really sure
And I'm not doing fine, I'm stuck in hard times
Know I'll be fine, got so much time
But I don't got peace of mind, all the lost times
Peace I need to find
You missed out on my change, on my heartbrakes
On my friends graves
I know if you saw me, you wouldn't recognize
Know I'm not the same kid, I'm still the same kid
Seen so much pain Dad, Dad I'm so sad
Tell me where to go Dad, at life I'm so bad
Thinking lately, can't remember
Your voice has faded
I remember, from the pictures
But your not really there
Living in pain, feel like like I'm insane
Memories running in my brain, then they hit the flame
Sorry Dad I'm medicated, all the pain I fade it
If you could see me you would hate it
I wish we had more time, pain and regrets
So much loss on my mind, pain I've met
I've been put to the test with my depression
All the people I have lost, and life lessons
I don't got peace of mind, all the lost times
Peace I need to find
You missed out on my change, on my heartbrakes
On my friends graves
Now your in a box Dad, in my room Dad
Some things we won't ever have
Know we lost you early, faded memories
I just hope you've found peace
Thinking lately, can't remember
Your voice has faded
I remember, from the pictures
But your not really there
Don't you worry Dad, I'm doing just fine
You ain't got to watch my back, not this time
And I'm not gonna join you, not so soon
I've got so much left to do, before I got to
Now I'm doing better yeah, better than I was
But you know that's not saying much, got a bad punch
Know I can't forget you, don't remember much
But I know I won't lose you