Heff - I Make Myself Lonely Lyrics

My head is underwater
It's a deep, dark pool I'm in
I can see the surface close above
But I stay here suffocating

And my friends have all but left me
I'm only there when they are too
But I'm distant now and I won't reach out
So I guess it's just no use

Lonely, lonely, I make myself so lonely
Better off to die alone than let the world control me
But solitary, it's not just me I'm sparing
Better to go down alone than to bring someone along

My hands aren't much for holding
They're getting colder all the time
It's a consequence that I've gathered from experience and finding that

I don't want to be hurt more
Don't wanna cause more pain myself
So I'll bite my tongue till it cuts clean off
And return to my rejected shelf

Lonely, lonely, I make myself so lonely
Better off to die alone than let the world control me
But solitary, it's not just me I'm sparing
Better to go down alone than to bring someone along

And I'm set for the rapids in a casket
Seems everybody's got a question so they ask it
But I don't wanna talk, won't reconvene
It won't help anybody in the scheme of things

I'm stuck in a tomb I made myself
There isn't room for anybody else
I just know too much of my nature
And what I'll carry to the end
Than to act like I'm not a detriment to everyone I've ever met

I'm lonely, lonely, I'm better on my own see
Better off to die alone than let someone control me
But maybe, (Oh) maybe it's not just me I'm saving
Better to go down alone than to bring someone along
Better to go down alone than to bring someone along