Channeling John Hurt Video (MV)

I'm alone in the kitchen
Putting dishes away
And trying desperately
To keep my feelings tucked away

I focus all my attention
On each plate, knife, or glass
And keep up the pretense
That this turmoil will pass

And I can feel it in my chest
Ready for its big reveal
Sometimes I forget
What it is I have concealed

I feel a burning in my eyes
From the tears I'm holding in
I know it's over
When the rupture begins

I can't stop the trembling
But I refuse to stop
I know I'll collapse
As soon as my defenses drop

And I can feel it in my chest
Struggling to be free
And I know my effort's doomed
Because it's stronger than me

And when I finally give up the fight
And it bursts into the light
I end up shaking down on all fours
And when my defenses break
You come to me and you take
My trembling hand in yours

And I know that this flood will pass
And you know it too
But days like these remind me
That I'd be lost without you