Kid Video (MV)

Maybe I was scared to pass things onto you
Or was I just too selfish to see the whole thing through
It could have been the job and the stress that came about
Or it may have been your mom her self-esteem was runnin out
We talked about you sometimes and just how hard it'd be
Trying to raise a kid having to worry about money
We thought about the trials that'd you have to face
We fought about the types of miles that'd you have to pace
We stayed versatile avoidin commitments to be made
It wasn't personal but our choices made you fade
The shadow of your soul could appear if I blinked
And disappeared again before I could even think
About how I still could see you playing with the dog
And forgive the crimes I caught like drawing on the wall
But the walls stayed clear and the dog missed a friend
Cause the story never started so it didn't need an end

Sometimes I'm under your spell it's true
Makes me wonder if I do it all for you
Maybe I'm okay or maybe my heart's torn
But you have never lived kid
You were never born
Thoughts are sensational memories are alive
Feeling so emotional I need to dry my eyes
Imaginary stuff fill the void while I mourn
Of course you are my kid but you were never born

It's alright me and mom we get along just fine
At the store when I least expect it she smacks my behind
We play games like that and I try to keep her surprised
That's how we keep the spark that bounces between our eyes
But even though we're happy we still come back to you
And get all flustered cause we don't know what to do
Keep livin day to day with you lurking in our head
But pullin out prevention gets utilized instead
The family keeps on askin when you gonna have a kid
The neighbors keep on prying but we keep it under lid
The truth is we keep lyin insecurity stays hid
We're not even tryin we didn't place a bid
Resume our day to day without you in our home
The years go by so quickly but you have never grown
Everyday's your birthday we never picked one true
And everyday's your death we keep cycling through you

Sometimes I'm under your spell it's true
Makes me wonder if I do it all for you
Maybe I'm okay or maybe my heart's torn
But you have never lived kid
You were never born
Thoughts are sensational memories are alive
Feeling so emotional I need to dry my eyes
Imaginary stuff fill the void while I mourn
Of course you are my kid but you were never born

Now we're old and gray the dog doesn't want to play
How'd we fade away I don't know what to say
And we sit here wondering why the cards fell the way they did
Got no one to share our stories with we never had you kid
But on the bright side of things we saved you from yourself
You'll never worry about money or your mental health
Won't have to get a car to reach a dead-end job
No significant other to make you feel like a slob
To follow that you'll never have to feel your heart get broke
You won't have to feel worthless like your life is a joke
There won't be college no need to figure who to be
Mom and dad get to sit back and bank 250 G's
No pain no loss no need to run and hide
No need to turn to God because you won't need a guide
I swear that's the upside so don't get mad okay
Guess it don't really matter you can't hear this anyway