Oh God don't let 'em know
Don't let them see that I am cracking
The fractures deeps beneath the surface
I wouldn't want 'em to be worried about me
You think they'd ever know?
You think they'd notice if I broke down?
If I just slid into the background
Let the darkness and the shadows wrap around
Oh do you think that they'd come looking for me?
Oh if I finally went and disappeared
I don't even know if they could dive down this deep
And who'd have ever thought that I could end up here
I'm sorry mother father if I disappointed
Oh God don't let me know
Don't ever tell me what you prayed for
When you knew you would have a daughter
Don't want to know how far I've strayed from what you wanted for her
So am I really here?
Is this what dreams are really made of?
'Cause if it's true that's pretty f*cked up
Thought dreams would make you feel alive and give a purpose
So why am I heartsick, worthless?
Oh do you think that they'd come looking for me?
Oh if I finally went and disappeared
I don't even know if they could dive down this deep
And who'd have ever thought that I could end up here
I'm sorry mother father if I disappointed
I'm alright
I try to tell myself most nights
But when it comes out of my mouth
I know I'm lying
I'm just lying
Oh do you think that they'd come looking for me?
Oh if I finally went and disappeared
I don't even know if they could dive down this deep
And who'd have ever thought that I could end up here
Oh do you think that they'd come looking for me?
Oh if I finally went and disappeared
I don't even know if they could dive down this deep
And who'd have ever thought that I could end up here
I'm sorry everybody if I disappointed