I am the man I never wanted to be
Living with the guilt for those I've hurt
Light casts the shadow of an addict
A lingering reminder of my failures
Treading in a lake of sin
Bricks of my past crammed within
Righteousness pulling at my skin
Darkness envelops all
Standing in the distance a menacing blur
A haze of confusion, in the shape of fear
By the time you hear
You're already dead
Courage, circumstantial and temporary
Moments of strength dictate your destiny
Nothing is forever
Love exists only through hatred
My endless pride, smug and horrified
Controlled by greed, watching others bleed
Insatiable lust, violating trust
Divine wrath, my blood stained path
True fear, embraced by those who survive
Every breath I take fills my lungs
With envy for the happiness deprived
Cleanse the earth and say goodbye
If seeing is believing, I've watched myself die