Han - Tales of a Failed Altruist Lyrics

I don't always wanna be the bad guy
But I can't do much else but face the facts, I
Wanted to do better, but I'm not strong enough
I just take advantage of you till you're all out of love
Oh my
Promise I don't really want to hurt you
My selfish tendencies are such a curse, you
Say that I can't help it, wish I could prove you wrong
I'm a slave to my own vices, so I sing you my song
I'm the antagonist of my own plane
I can't escape this bed I've made
Certain I can't change my ways
You'll do better to forget my name, alright
Mother told me therapy would be the answer
But I know it won't work, I'll be damaged forever
Looking in the mirror is my number one fear
So I'd rather stay reviled by my friends and my peers
Family won't talk to me, they look at me sadly
And I know I'm always gonna be the black sheep
Anxiety runs in my genes, but I'm still to blame
'Cause I'm not the one who bears the brunt of all of my pain
The antagonist of my own plane
I can't escape this bed I've made
Certain I can't change my ways
You'll do better to forget my name
The whispers of the ancient snake
The teenage devil wears my face
And I will never change my ways
You'll do better to forget my name, oh no
Ooh, yeah
Tell me who you want me to be
As long as I don't have to change
Tell me who you'd wish me to be
Just as long as I can stay the same
I can never grow beyond the same old troubled kid
Learning would require me to atone for what I did
I don't want to, I refuse
I reserve the right to choose to be this way
I'm too terrified to change, so
Here we go again (here we go again)
Another friendship up in flames
Another bloodstain on my name
It's getting really hard to pretend
I'm not the one to blame
Here we go again (here we go again)
Another friendship up in flames
Another bloodstain on my name
It's getting really hard to pretend
I'm not the one to blame
I won't
I won't
I won't do what it takes to change
I won't do what it takes to change
I won't do what it takes to change
I won't do what it takes to change
To change, to change, to change, to change
Tell me what you want from me
Tell me what you want from me
Tell me what you want from me
Tell me what you want from me
Tell me what you, what you, what you
Tell me what you, what you, what you
Tell me what you, what you, what you
What you, what you want from me
As long as I can stay the same
I just wanna live my life, my life, my life
My life, my life, my life, my life, my life
So what if I die, I die, I die
I die, I die, I die, I die, I die
I die
I die
I die
I die
I die
I die
A brush with death is all it takes
To realize that I've made some mistakes
Now it's time, there's choices to be made
To wallow here forever
Or start to make it better, I say
No more slinging selfish lies
No more tears fall from my eyes, I won't
Be hurting you forever
Promise you I can do better
No more living make-believe
No more friends enable me
Don't forgive and don't forget
Just put this boy to rest, and I say
Don't keep living in yesterday
Take today to learn from yesterday
And do good things tomorrow
Before I change my life
Are my reasons right
Or I just want you to sympathize?
I don't deserve forgiveness
'Cause nothing takes back what I've done
Can't put this bullet back in the gun
I may never atone enough to satisfy
But all I can do is try
Here we go again (here we go again)
Another friendship up in flames
Another bloodstain on my name
It's getting really hard to pretend
I'm not the one to blame
I'm the antagonist of my own plane
I can't escape this bed I've made (I'm not the one to blame)
Certain I can't change my ways
You'll do better to forget my name (I'm not the one to blame)
Forget my name (I'm not the one to blame)
Forget my name
Don't remember me after this
Don't remember me after this
As just a failed altruist