Halaj Pharaoh-Jali Lialu - Atheistic God Lyrics

Given my
Best, I wonder if I'm good
Enough, Should
I stay, should I go, I don't
Know, Given my
Best, I don't feel like I'm good
Enough, Should
I stay, should I go, I don't know

Given my best, am I good enough
Good enough for who? Let self-acceptance be your truth
Should I stay, should I stay, in the place I'm at
Now, not with the mic on the stage but blending with
The crowd or should I go, should I go, to where I wanna
Be, I wanna walk through the door of vulnerability
To enter into the house of inner peace
But when I speak my vision, nobody believes
Nobody believes, believes in what I see
And it's so many of them but only one of me
Then everyone starts squinting at me like I'm crazy
And I interpret this as I need to change me
I rearrange beliefs so that their gaze will agree
I give up my divinity then erase my memory
I guess music won't meant for me so this is my last
Song, 'cause I don't believe in who I am the Atheistic God
I'm gone

Given my
Best, I wonder if I'm good
Enough, Should
I stay, should I go, I don't
Know, Given my
Best, I don't feel like I'm good
Enough, Should
I stay, should I go, I don't know

If I choose to be a pupil of my peers' vision
And refuse to be a teacha of my own religion
The consequence is no Genesis of brilliance
So, no Exodus from the dusk that we're living to kiss
That's an increase in numbers of felons confined to brain
Cells, why do I feel I must give judges justification
For hand hopping to the breaks of my heart
When tap dancing will only break my heart (They will squint their eyes!)
They will squint their eyes in response to my light
But that squint doesn't mean my light should repent
Cause it's only sinning to be sitting on the gift given
By GOD and stop living through the rhythm and the rhyme
And although I believe all of that in my mind
It's a different story when it comes to living this life
Like I need their eyes to look at me (Look at me!)
And see the person that I am Born to Be (See me!)
The Atheistic God doesn't believe in itself
But if I don't believe in me then why should anybody else? (I don't know)

Given my
Best, I wonder if I'm good
Enough, Should
I stay, should I go, I don't
Know, (I don't know) Given my
Best, I don't feel like I'm good
Enough, Should
I stay, should I go, I don't know

I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
I'm petrified of what they will say if I go
I don't know I don't know I don't know
What if I lose everything and end up all alone (I don't know)
I don't know I don't know I don't know
Is there somebody, anybody, who could tell me
What should I do? What should I believe
The words that they say or the things that I see (I don't know)
Royce da 5'9
Homage

Truth be told
I don't know I don't know I don't know
I'm petrified of what they will say if I
Go But if you never go then you will never
Know, that your effort could of overcame every obstacle
I don't know I don't know I don't know
What if I lose everything and end up all
Alone But maybe what you have isn't what you need
And in isolation you must learn who you're Born to Be