hakyhm - 1st Love Lyrics

Look at myself in the mirror just to reflect my decisions
And ever since I was young, I knew that I was different
Sat at lunch by myself, I knew I couldn't fit in
And I'ma be by myself when I start touchin' millions

I watched a person I love lose their love for me in front of my eyes
Know that shit killed me inside I watched a heartbreak that broke another heart
And then another heartbreak, so now it's built up inside
What am I supposed to do? Bitch, I miss the older you

Bitch, I still miss hold of you, I wish that I was close to you
Text you on IG to try to fix it, then regret it
They ask me why I'm nonchalant my heart, is where you left it
You told me that you hope I find somebody that's gon' love me like you couldn't

But I love you so bad, I wish I wouldn't
Nine months ain't see you, met you in New Riegel
We was supposed to be together, now it our hearts with different people
How long did it take you to delete our pictures

I know it took me a couple of months
Some shit I wonder, and I'm sorry if ever miss ya
You being happy is some shit that I just always want
Sometimes shit just don't work out

Even when y'all happy together
And you all striving, but f*ck it, look
I don't even blame you for leaving
For you, I wasn't the best, man

I tried to be my best and then I always had checked in
Went up through yo phone and I see you had text him
But I was wrong for going through your phone
You was my first everything, I overthought it all reason I'm alone

My heart get mixed in with my peace, I'm barely holding on
I don't like to be around people, party all alone
Uh, you know what I'm on
And at the end of the day, I know I got myself

And when I'm off of my grind, I feel I'm not myself
Learning how to be alone is what I taught myself
All that shit that I bought you, I should've bought myself
With love I'm learning, no, I'm not perfect

I get the thinking heart, get heavy stomach, turning
I learned my purpose, know what my worth is
And I'ma only show my effort if you worth it
With time you supposed to heal Well, how much time I got?

And after you done left, I put more time in God
And I know it shouldn't take change to get closer
But sometimes it takes some change to get closer