HAIDER SAMSARA - i get high / i fall down Lyrics

Never did I think I'd be so done
Never would you guess the shit I'm on
Lost my lifestyle, lifestyle
Catch a train, turning turnstiles
Family shame, faking old smiles
All the same, all the same
My boys still saying all the same shit, like

Reverse my debts and f*ck my pay check
Never settle less cuz my mind is racing
Faster and faster, this life is pacing
I'd be lucky for an early death
Been looking to get shit off my chest
Been f*cking all night cuz my heart upset
Been searching for a purpose when my memories are worthless
And I never got better baby; mind is a mess

Then I get high
Always can find the time
Til I can fly
Then I fall down

Seeing all the things I could have done
But I ain't got no regrets
My soul cemented, time is set in stone
But I ain't smoke this shit yet

Still I'm kickin pimpin when I wanna be
Cash no change don't want receipt
Policies I don't agree, police wanna holla me
But I ain't got shit
Man I hate that shit, goes like

Hedge my bets to repress my feelings
On some quest for some greater meaning
Not got 'peez' cuz I'm always dreaming
Bout that pussy girl you know I'm fiending
Whispering secrets in her ears
Keep giving good people bad ideas
Broke ass Aziz with a fiver in his sleeves
But you can gentrify my ass for free cuz

Then I get high
Always can find the time
Til I can fly
Then I fall down