Decisions Video (MV)

Decisions, course-correcting visions
Captain of my own damn sinking ship

Some days, struggle over each wave
Tunnel vision replay in my mind
Tried to, tried my best to steer through
Obstacles in plain view and still I find

I'm taking on water, I won't be discovered again
But still I grip harder in search of a better way's end
As if I'll mend

Decisions, course-correcting visions
Captain of my own damn sinking ship
Should I have gone down
With you standing by my side
It's not like me to bail out

Treading now, counting my breaths
Can't look down, it's just a matter of time
Until you see what's left of me
A body that's buried beneath

Decisions, course-correcting visions
Captain of my own damn sinking ship
Should I have gone down
With you standing by my side
It's not like me to bail out

The chaos is drowned out by silence
My silence is strangled by fear
Shooting my flare not in hopes that you'll save me
But just as a sign I was here

I'm captain of all the decisions I've made
A vessel with only my name
I promised return with no cause for concern
But that certainty sailed away

I'm captain of all that I could be one day
A thought that I once used to say
Now all that I'm thinking is
I'm f*cking sinking
And filling this grave where I'll lay

Maybe it's better this way