Grudges & Anxxiety - Shot After Shot Lyrics

I swallow pill after pill
And choke down shot after shot
Feeling so bleak and so dark
Oh lord, I'm falling apart
F*ck

I'm scared to die then I wanna die
Why, my oh my, look at the time
Anxiety makes the minutes fly while I am lost inside my mind
I try and try, I close my eyes
Should I drink up
Should get high
I can't wake up, think wanna die
Now I'm wide awake. This is my life
Too much pride, keep depression inside
If I said I'm fine, that's right I lied
Watch me take this bourbon for a ride
That's right, you can really pry
I won't let u in, so please don't try
Last time I did it made u cry
Miss me with that f*ckin' bullshit
Ya, nah, not this time

1,000 cuts as deep as bone
These wounds, I made them on my own
I watched the blood fall to the floor
And still I'm crying out for more

I am just sick
I am incurable
I am a risk
What good is this?
Please tell me, Miss
I am here, suffering
I have no bliss
Give death a kiss
Sure, I'll be missed but I am a sinner
I'm next on the list
In death I found bliss
I'm tired of crying and dying inside
Lord, I confide
This pain I subside
I cannot handle it
I cannot hide
Cease all the punishment that is my life
Leave it behind
Tears on the knife
I did it right and I still lost the fight
Drown in the bottle, a cure for the sorrow
Numb out tomorrow, the demons that follow
God, it feels right
The ending in sight
No one will see me
I'll fade in the night

I swallow pill after pill
And choke down shot after shot
Feeling so bleak and so dark
Oh lord, I'm falling apart
F*ck