Goofilth - The Constant of Disappointment (feat. Gaia Nozems) Lyrics

I feel tempted to die
Hear their words day and night
I'm not the one to blame
But for them it's all the same
I wish I could die
Load my gun and say bye-bye
Tell me, will you cry
Or keep living on denial?
Ask your mom to talk to me
While you're busy talking shit
Such a shame to be like this
Always acting like a kid
Not my fault, not my fault
I keep saying it over and over
Saved my sorrow inside a vault
All those words are giving me power
To fight back, back at you
I can see you know it too
I am not sorry we're so few
After all you put us through

Don't speak
I don't mind
Your companion a knife
That pushes me into the void
My blood in your hands
Do you wanna watch me die?
You wanna watch me die
Don't change the channel
It's already happening

I've gone to hell and back
Seen my fears come to life
Still I haven't crashed
Despite of you I'm still alive
All my friends, I know they're dead
Couldn't bear to put a fight
A pile of shit inside their heads
From doing nothing to be depressed
That's the cycle on repeat
Every night the same old shit
Hit the blunt, buy more weed
Tonight we'll pass out, I'll take the lead
Woke up lost and chug some pills
It's been twelve hours, I've got the chills
Let's roll it up to numb my feels
And maybe forget I've got ideals

You say that you worry about me
Taking the crown, king of charity
In front of those that see me like a freak
But you are unnable to see
'Cause this is too heavy
For you
You can't learn living between feathers
Can you tell the others
That you couldn't save me?
But you never tried it (no)
Now I'm gone
Where the hell was you?
When I needed you the most