Godot's Travels - Six Sided Black Diamond Lyrics

I really want it to work, I'm treading water for now
I'm trying to find somewhere solid I can plant my feet and grow
It's hard to know how to manage my own cynical mind
I always find myself high and trying to drown out my own voice

The past few months my life has changed for the better
Or maybe it's been the worse
I can't keep my head together
Out on the road, she calls me when I'm working
She says "I love you" and I say "I love you too"

You see, I tell you, but I don't love you
I just don't love myself enough to be alone
So there, I said it
I'm at the top of my game
I feel like a real piece of shit
But I think that you're hurting the same way

So maybe we could love each other
Keep ourselves from the pain
I'm just not sure right now in my life I should be focusing on feeling comfortable

Maybe I should confront it
F*ck everyone and play music
Lately I've doubted everything that I do, but maybe it'll come

I feel ashamed of myself basically all of the time
I need to reevaluate everything in my life
I've no more energy to give it
But it keeps sucking it from me
I just want to scream "f*ck it, f*ck it, f*ck it
I hate music and I hate myself"