Never Knew Me Video (MV)

It's my fault I let y'all get the best of me, and it's shit really sad though
Cause my mom and my family don't even get the same meat no more
Y'all was doing all that shit like it wasnt supposed to hurt me
Nah, it ain't hurt me, but like I said it wasn't never supposed to, right

Geez, watch me promise me
Just take a chance to listen to what I got to say, cause I don't think y'all understand
Just take a chance to walk a mile in my shoes, cause y'all don't feel the weight, y'all don't
Feel the pain

Will never see the fate that God put in my hands
MLK, C-Sun, and M-Town, Ju-Block, what I claim, that's where I grew up
Happy with nothing on my plate, don't talk to me about being humble through the rain
I be hurt, y'all do me wrong, it make me flash, but I don't hate

Never seen it coming, scars all on my back, not on my face
All them nights I cried alone, not guilty, my spirit just shamed
Felt my soul, leave my body, cause too many demons came
Every night I pray God take my sins away

Every church I went to, they told me I'm supposed to be a pastor
Momma got videos of me eight praise dancing, but lately I been crashing
Blacking out, lost myself back then to depression
Ever since, I just been stepping my confession, and I still count all my blessings

They come in different ways, some just be lessons
God gifted me with wisdom and understanding
I always prove it, don't just tell them
I be wanting children, but don't want to fail them

I be selfish if I have them just to help me
They label me a menace when I just adapted to them trying to kill me
23 and 55, locked down for months and myself tripping
Overcame my feelings once, had to think outside the picture

Demo died, my momma begged me, son, don't hurt these people's children
Just take a chance to listen to what I got to say
Cause I don't think y'all understand
Just take a chance to walk a mile in my shoes

Cause y'all don't feel the weight, y'all don't feel the pain
Will never see the fate that God put in my hands
Always tried to give it all I had to be good
Hearted spreading , love with all these demons in my head

But y'all don't seem to understand
Y'all don't understand, y'all never did, y'all never will
So why the f*ck y'all all think y'all know who I am
Don't tell me that you feel me cause you don't

Always laugh straight in my face, but I ain't never get the jokes
Momma told me I was special, I don't feel it
Was she wrong, I say it myself too, but lately I've been slowly losing hope
Autumn died, I cried, I questioned God why you ain't let me die

I lost my mind, was laying in the street wishing the car come flying
I know I should've did more just to let you know I'm by your side
They say I did, but I can't shake the feeling
I ain't really try, and that shit eat me up inside

You showed me how to sit aside my pride
I just wish you would've called to say goodbye
Lord knows rod album PTSD always got me through hard times
They say they really care about me

How come they ain't see the signs
Then they try to reach out
It was sorry, y'all was too late
Y'all ain't come in time, don't worry about it

Always conquer all, I promise I will rise
Always conquer all, I promise to God I'm gone rise
I promise I'm gone rise
I promise to God, watch me prosper

You hear me
Whatever, I did all the steps
I don't give a f*ck
I'm not clearing up shit

On G's, come do it
Never sorry