GLEAM - i can't keep up Lyrics

Baby look me in my eyes
Wanna see you glow in the starlight
Everything is black, everything is white
I feel like a failure, can't keep up with life
Someone's in my head telling me to roll the dice
Body made of glass, so I can't put up a fight
Put my body in the bag, we gon' reach the other side
Told you I was fine, all I ever do is lie
You sit back and wait for it to fall apart
You destroy me perfectly, it feels like art
Open up my chest and try to fix my heart
You just pull the strings and you control my arms
Withered heart, but it beats for you
Fall apart like I'm missing a screw
Patch me up like you always do
Best hand, but I always lose
You explain in ways that I don't understand
Let you feel my heartbeat while you hold my hand
Tryna' hold my breath, but I don't think I can
Baby look me in my eyes
Wanna see you glow in the starlight
Everything is black, everything is white
I feel like a failure, can't keep up with life
Someone's in my head telling me to roll the dice
Body made of glass, so I can't put up a fight
Put my body in the bag, we gon' reach the other side
Told you I was fine, all I ever do is lie
New life, new face, I hate me
Everything has been backwards lately
New stripes on my skin, I'm shaking
Staying home, missing plans, cause I'm flakey
That message sounded like you're pissed off
I feel like a burden so I kick rocks
You just see my mental as a hitbox
I missed my potion so I quick dropped